Being forced to go to doctors tommorrow/Cancer Diagnosis
My wife and I have been having a fight now and communication has been very scarce due to me not wanting to deal with the diagnosis of cancer of the lungs.
Wife gave me an ultimatum yet again that if I did not go she would have me baker acted as she thinks I show warning signs of wanting to end my life even though I did purchase a gun this past week I really don't know If I want to go to the doctors to find out more as my wife says she needs to know,what about how I feel she is not even thinking of this just how stressed out she is since I told her that my pulmonologist told me I have lung cancer.I am supposed to go back to the doctors tommorrow to find out more about the cancer.I really don't want to know and could careless if my number is called I am ready to go and knock on heavens door.
Meanwhile I am trying to work on my marriage after several fights and hurtful exchange of words over the last month and a half.My wife started to go to a therapist to deal with her end of things and now is nagging at me to go and when I ask what has taken place she tells me If you want to know then you will just have to show up to the therapy appts,right now I am not really interested in talking with any type of shrink or therapist I already have enough on my plate as it is now I am using photos of my abuser as bullet practice it helps to blow of steam this way.
I know sooner or later I will probably wind up in a therapist office I just want it to be under my own free will and not forced and controled like a puppet on a string.Other then the above everything is just dandy and rosy.
Wife gave me an ultimatum yet again that if I did not go she would have me baker acted as she thinks I show warning signs of wanting to end my life even though I did purchase a gun this past week I really don't know If I want to go to the doctors to find out more as my wife says she needs to know,what about how I feel she is not even thinking of this just how stressed out she is since I told her that my pulmonologist told me I have lung cancer.I am supposed to go back to the doctors tommorrow to find out more about the cancer.I really don't want to know and could careless if my number is called I am ready to go and knock on heavens door.
Meanwhile I am trying to work on my marriage after several fights and hurtful exchange of words over the last month and a half.My wife started to go to a therapist to deal with her end of things and now is nagging at me to go and when I ask what has taken place she tells me If you want to know then you will just have to show up to the therapy appts,right now I am not really interested in talking with any type of shrink or therapist I already have enough on my plate as it is now I am using photos of my abuser as bullet practice it helps to blow of steam this way.
I know sooner or later I will probably wind up in a therapist office I just want it to be under my own free will and not forced and controled like a puppet on a string.Other then the above everything is just dandy and rosy.