Been a a little while!
WontGiveUp
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Hi All,
So - basically, this is just a quick update on me, since I have talked a few times about my surgery and biopsy going on. Got the results yesterday - CLEAR!!!! ;-D So no more steps to be taken, no abnormal cells, no nothing! Just some inflammation!!! I have the AOK from my doc to resume normal activities, and no reason to go back unless I have another issue.
WHAT A RELIEF! ;-D
Things are going ok. Still in the same spot. Had some struggles past few days with my emotions... Seems I still have unrealistic expectations and I am trying to work on it.
I also am trying to work on some other things - they really do help me...Putting my focus on how I take things, how I interact and how I might seem sometimes. I am learning to express my needs in a way that says "It would mean alot to me if...." to my husband. This way, he can say no if he needs, and maybe it will help him not have any guilt about that? Trying to make sure our voices are equal and all that.
Really just trying to be a better person I guess? I have many faults, and I want to really do as much as i can to address them. Next time I am in a relationship, I will be better equipped I think to manage my own emotional stakes. I can honestly say that this little scare was enough to make me really really really not waste a moment of my life on things that are hurtful. I have decided that when my husband leaves, I am going to ignite a life full of passion, love, reaching dreams, seeing the world...
I plan on going to events in my hobby all over the country and possibly the world (That Viking Fire Festival looks pretty RAD!). I plan on doing my very best to climb the seven summits. (got a 5 year plan in place to get me in the best shape of my life). Hope is so important in life, these plans give me hope. I feel like life has been on hold now for so long, waiting for my husband to "decide" what he wants (even though he decides differently depending on mood). No more though.. the end is in sight, and though I wish it was not the case, it is - and I will make the very best of it that I can.
With out you guys - I dont see how I could have even gotten this far...
I am re
So - basically, this is just a quick update on me, since I have talked a few times about my surgery and biopsy going on. Got the results yesterday - CLEAR!!!! ;-D So no more steps to be taken, no abnormal cells, no nothing! Just some inflammation!!! I have the AOK from my doc to resume normal activities, and no reason to go back unless I have another issue.
WHAT A RELIEF! ;-D
Things are going ok. Still in the same spot. Had some struggles past few days with my emotions... Seems I still have unrealistic expectations and I am trying to work on it.
I also am trying to work on some other things - they really do help me...Putting my focus on how I take things, how I interact and how I might seem sometimes. I am learning to express my needs in a way that says "It would mean alot to me if...." to my husband. This way, he can say no if he needs, and maybe it will help him not have any guilt about that? Trying to make sure our voices are equal and all that.
Really just trying to be a better person I guess? I have many faults, and I want to really do as much as i can to address them. Next time I am in a relationship, I will be better equipped I think to manage my own emotional stakes. I can honestly say that this little scare was enough to make me really really really not waste a moment of my life on things that are hurtful. I have decided that when my husband leaves, I am going to ignite a life full of passion, love, reaching dreams, seeing the world...
I plan on going to events in my hobby all over the country and possibly the world (That Viking Fire Festival looks pretty RAD!). I plan on doing my very best to climb the seven summits. (got a 5 year plan in place to get me in the best shape of my life). Hope is so important in life, these plans give me hope. I feel like life has been on hold now for so long, waiting for my husband to "decide" what he wants (even though he decides differently depending on mood). No more though.. the end is in sight, and though I wish it was not the case, it is - and I will make the very best of it that I can.
With out you guys - I dont see how I could have even gotten this far...
I am re
