Jerry,
First let me say welcome our little refuge on the www. Glad you found us, and so sorry that you needed to come here in the first place. This is a place where the people that come here know what you are going through because we've been there too. We understand all to well the emotional pain, the isolation, the loneliness that survivors of childhood sexual abuse experience.
One of the most healing things about this place is when you can talk about what happened to you and be believed. By talking about things we can get it out on the table and see it for what it really is. We can begin to heal from the terrible hurt.
Please feel free to do things here as you become comfortable. Post when you wish. Lurk in the corners if you wish and just read. It is your recovery, and you need to be able to do it at a pace you are comfortable with.
I wish you peace.
Lots of love,
John