Back to therapy...
Hey all... just wanted to give an update. I went back to therapy last Friday - going again tomorrow. I really am shocked at how much it helped after being away from it for 6+ months. We did some regression therapy (aka hypnotherapy) and while we didn't touch on anything traumatic, I got to explore my feelings of telling my girlfriend about the abuse. How I wanted her to be there but wanted to push her away at the same time, be distant, etc.
I helped so much... I let my g/f know that I wanted her help but it would have to be on my time. (I haven't gone into any detail with her yet, and regrettably, I am still playing the abuse off as not a big deal... but it's how I have to play it right now in order to cope with her knowing anything at all!) I am hoping to work on my need to escape into violent images during sex in the next couple of weeks of therapy. That's always a fun discussion to have with your therapist... not.
Thanks for everyone here for the support the past couple of weeks... I couldn't have done it without you.
-Sean
I helped so much... I let my g/f know that I wanted her help but it would have to be on my time. (I haven't gone into any detail with her yet, and regrettably, I am still playing the abuse off as not a big deal... but it's how I have to play it right now in order to cope with her knowing anything at all!) I am hoping to work on my need to escape into violent images during sex in the next couple of weeks of therapy. That's always a fun discussion to have with your therapist... not.
Thanks for everyone here for the support the past couple of weeks... I couldn't have done it without you.
-Sean