Back at square one

Back at square one
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coolcat

Registrant
It's been a bad weekend. I feel that I am right back at square one. I am starting to think about dying again(which hasn't happen in a few months). I' ve gambling, which I have an addiction to. I just don't seem to care or trust anyone anymore. i want to say the hell with it all and go back into hiding and denial which i've done so many times in the past.
i feel like everyone is getting tired of hearing me and my problems and I am getting tired to. I just have so many mixed up emotions. I just want it all to end.
Gus
 
Gus,

Do whatever you need to do to get beyond where you are. Rant, rave, whine, cry, scream, whatever. I NEVER get tired of hearing it, because it means you're not letting it poison you.

We ALL rant here (Like......ME say! :rolleyes: ), and we all NEED to. We've been dealt a very bad hand and we'll overcome it. You may be back to square one, but the climb out will be easier.

Thinking about you, bro.

Peace and love. :D
Scot
 
not at all, gus..

bitch all you want.....

if you spend your energy trying to convince people that you are perfect & never admit the imperfect aspects of your life, you eventually will find yourself surrounded by people who have also convinced themselves that everything in their world is just 'perfect'.
 
Hey...

rant

rave

bitch

moan

do WHATEVER it takes to make it through the pain...man if you have any desire to get to a 12 step meeting get to one...if you a T make an emergency appointment...if you don't have a T and want one, make a project of finding one...whatever helps you...you are not back at square one, you have so much more than you did back then: knowledge, experience, and hope..that's right hope..if you feel like you are back at square one that means at some point you were at square two..square five..square a thousand..you've been there and will be there again.

feel better.
 
cat..

good reading here..

https://spaz.ca/aaron/billious/RCYS/

best
 
Gus,

I'm sorry you are feeling this way, although I can relate. I have felt so much that way before, like I have fallen back to the beginning and such. But no matter how hard it is, I never have dropped all the way to the bottom. I have been suicidal on and off, but each time that I get there again, I can fight it easier. It does happen, it does improve. I hope you will find it some easier soon. Please be good to yourself and try to be safe.

Leosha
 
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