at the end of my rope

at the end of my rope
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Yves

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I've been sitting here for hours and hours trying to think of something to say or describe how I feel. I feel empty. Completely empty. I feel like everything is gone, there is nothing left. I don't know which way to turn, what to do, who to talk to, what to say. I don't even know what question to ask or how to put a point to my ramblings. I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this, this nothingness, this emptiness, this void. I suppose I should want to ask for help. I don't know how or why I should. There is nothing left, nothing more, nothing good. Days tick by like hours on the clock, daylight becomes darnkess and darkness is long and cold and empty and nothing. There is no reason. There is no light.
 
Yves, my brother,

You have every reason to keep fighting. You are a very important person here and a very important person TO ME!

If you feel the least bit self-destructive, I want you to promise me you'll either call the local suicide prevention hotline/The Samaritans (in the phone book) or go to the NEAREST hospital emergency room RIGHT AWAY! They can help you through this period if it gets that bad.

You know, it's very common to feel empty and like a void. I spend half my life there. But you ahve to focus on the people or things that make life worth it FOR YOU. It could be a family member or friend, lover, pet, a sunrise, a sunset, a painting, a song or other piece of music. Whatever it takes, Yves, to get yourself thinking about life and how good it can be.

These times will pass. They don't last forever. I know they SEEM like they do, but they don't. You are a good person and a fine human. One I'm very proud to know and consider a friend here.

If you need anything, please PM me. i'm always here and I do care for you, my brother.

Much peace and love, Yves.

Scot
 
Yves,

I've sent you an e-mail and PM and IM. Let's talk a little.

Take care my friend,
Bill
 
Yves, it sounds like you are at a very, very dark time just now. Most all of have been there--sometimes for a long time and sometimes, too often. But, here we are reading and responding and finding some joy is seeing others have a breakthrough or a good day. They do come.

We have several good books that many of us read. Mike Lew and Dr. Mic Hunter have some good books that explain a lot. Our past President, De. Richard Gartner has written a book that was especially helpful to me. The very title explained a lot of my enduring pain: BETRAYED AS BOYS. Most libraries should have these. I find that reading about abuse and the stories on our stories pages give me hope when I feel really down. I hope they may brighten your days as well.

Bob
 
(((((Yves)))))

Think about what you would say to me if things were turned around.

Sometimes if we look within ourselves we can find the answer we never thought was there.

Hang in there Yves, you can do it.
 
Yves,
Te a knot at the bottom of your rope and hang in my friend. I know I am relatively new here, but I have heard enough from you to know you are an awesome, caring man. This world needs you. You may feel downnow, but I know it will start getting better. Just hang on, please!
Casey
 
You are a very important person and you matter. You many not realize that yet, but I think you will soon.

I was there last summer. I know what it feels like to be completely empty inside and to feel like there is no hope.

If I could give you this it would be - you are loved Yves, you are. The emptiness you feel inside may be a result of not knowing that you matter to anyone else. Like you have no purpose. You do.

I have to fight back the desire to say to myself that I am worthless and that I have no purpose in life. I do it by surrounding myself with friends who appreciate me. Who remind me that I do make a difference.

I know that you've made a difference in at least two people's lives. I'm sure there are more. Think about it.

Please hang in there.

Jim
 
Purpose, that's the real question here. I've found the purpose to be to try to be a honest, decent, and good person, and to help others as much as possible. The purpose is to try your best, and to help others along the way. Before you can be capable of helping others, you have to help yourself enough to be in a position to do it.

If I can help you, I gain more strength, and give it to many. Please help me, by helping yourself some for now, and helping others later when you have the strength to.
:)
 
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