At Play

[markgreyblue]

pertaining to the last post that i made and the discussion about personal reinforcing negative behavior - negative reinforcement - i realized - that - later on in the day that - mentally i started going in that direction again - although previously i had started to think about the day's activity - there was a juxtaposition -
i realized - that i think this self abuse
physically or mentally is an occupation -
playful or creative - and that said and realized -perhaps one can pull yourself out of the negative by realizing your mind wants an activity - come back to the here and NOW - your mind just chooses an old
obsolete and negative occupation that was taught -

so looking outward you can maybe then start to do ONLY --when you can - - THE THINGS YOU TRULY REALLY LIKE to do -

it brings comfort - and self acceptance and nouturing - there is also the opportunity to see others - in what they give you -
and respect their frame of mind -

well this was my take on the day after the last post -

it is really helping me to be ok and change the the self doubt - and the self denegration -
and physical abuse - into physical activity - a drive towards excellent outlets for the mind and body -

at play - play -

and loose the old occupation -

 

[Lloydy]

Mark

at play - play -

and loose the old occupation -

In the last few years I've resurrected some of my old hobbies, I take landscape photographs, do a bit of woodwork and I'm building a competition 4x4 from the wheels up - as well as all the other stuff I no longer seem to have time for !

It was an effort to resart these things because I'd developed a way of life that was nothing more than sitting in front of the TV watching shite and drinking beer. And that was a breeding ground for negativity.
Not only did I feel guilty about the behaviours that I thought were linked to the abuse ( I now know they were ) I was also feeling guilty about being a lazy slob.

Yes, get out there and play. Do something you always wanted to do - what's stopping us ?

Dave

 

[Leosha]

I think perhaps the cough medicine is interupting my brain. I am not sure what you meant with this post. But I do know that I do not believe I would have survived all the work on healing so far without the physical activity. I do know that at least for short time, my mind can be closed down some and I am just focused on the physical. If I could be doing it all day, every day, I would, and avoid dealing mentally with anything. But at some point, the body breaks down also, unfortunately.

Leosha

 

[arghilles]

Hello,

I had a period last autumn when I chose to direct my attention only outwards and being here and now. I maintained acute focus.
It helped a lot. I felt that I grew stronger and bigger day by day. One morning I woke up and felt really ok sadly enough that new sensation scared me and my destructive mind found new methods to put me down again. I haven't taken it up since.
However it is a good way of working on the problem and your mind will understand that bad things are not happening here and now. I got very selforiented too. I saw me for who I was.

So I think focus and activity is good.

Erik

 

[Bill_1965]

Ok Commander,

I think I got most of that, but I too have been taking too much cough medicine.

>Sometimes we get too preoccupied in self-abuse it becomes an occupation for us. Something we must do on a daily basis.

>Get your mind busy, having some fun - it will pull you out to the dumper.

>Leave that mind idle again - it will go back to work in the occupation of self-abuse.

>So keep playing to keep the mind pre-occupied so it can't get back to the self abuse.

hmmm. Is that right? I may have missed something.

This leaves me with some questions: Isn't continually loading your mind with activities to do a form of blocking? Then what happens when you must stop these activitives for some reason? (i.e. illness and injury). Is it possible to do these activities to a point that the mind will not remember its way back to the occupation of self-abuse? Is this a blocking technique or an excercise in reprogramming the mind?

Maybe I sould get some more cough syrup,
Bill