At my ropes in

At my ropes in
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OKIE MIKE

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I am looking for a "t" in the Muskogee Oklahoma area . I have had almost 10 Years with the Vererans Aminstration Hospital . They are a big joke . they have NO idea how to deal with Male sexual trama .
I hust want some kind of a normal life if that is possabe . Some times I just cant take it any more and wish that the SOB had just killed me . because I have lived in anguish and emotional pain for 29 years . enough allreany
I have looked under every rock to find this creap for several years . I would like to return some of the pain to him
 
Michael,

I'm so sorry I didn't see your post before now - I was in Germany and just yesterday returned to the UK.

On your effort to find the abuser, I can understand that but must ask: Would that help you, and how? If you did find him and successfuly prosecuted him, wouldn't that still leave you with a lot of work to do for your own recovery?

And if that's the case, why not simply rearrange your priorities and look out for yourself first? That is, after all, the last thing the abuser would have wanted you to do.

Much love,
Larry
 
Mike - the creap that 'did it to me' has always been in the same town (1969 to now).

Although I am in England, UK...you are right..the support available here is also rubbish.

I complained in Oct 2004 and achieved a conviction in March of this year. I buried everyhting all of the time between the abuse happening, and taking it to court.

I had some extremely bad times. I had a major breakdown, and 2 smaller ones that I know of. I'm just really starting to get back to being 'normal' now - 6 months after the case ended!

It took me from 1969 until now to achieve some form of normality! Once I spoke, it hurt even more for nearly 2 years, then it hit court and things gradually started getting better.

What made me feel better, was just knowing that I had done something to stop him in his tracks....nothing more, nothing less.

Yes it hurts, but don't ever give in.

I realised something very recently... I'm OK, I'm not mad/crazy. Neither are you...there really is a decent life out there...join me in seeking that life!

Best wishes ...Rik
 
You may have to go to Tulsa to find help. I know there is stuff there. It's a drive, but I have to drive 70 miles each way to Dallas - so it can be done. I found an male incest recovery group where I kinda fit in and make a day of it on Wednesdays.

I'll Pray for you.
 
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