Approval and Rejection Synergy

[lionking]

I do still hear their says even from far away.

They play endless in my head and drive me Insane.

I'd like to ask you - am I being who I am?

The question's nonsense when I don't know who I am.


Tell me what you think, tell me any, tell me what.

Rule my body, tell me "stop" when I talk a lot.

How should I live my life? Please take both of my hands.

Please make me dance, make me talk the way you want.


Why did you say that? Why didn't you answer me?

I saw how your eyes moved, from it I could just see.

I am unwanted, and your hands? They prove my point.

You can tell me though, if I am, and I won't join.


Things I think and say barely cross while in their paths.

I think "No" then say "Yes" for approvals I love.

I pull myself down from my fear of rejection.

Vigilant for its signals, Oh sweet obsession.


Approval and rejection, a good synergy.

Things get to me and I run away for safety.

Believing I am strong while crumbling to pieces.

Looking for miracles, but I can just make wishes.

 

[victor-victim]

i believe in miracles and wishes.
i am living proof.

i love and approve of the way you write... expounding profound connections between contrasting contradictions inside puzzling paradoxes and ambiguous answers within rhetorical questions about juxtaposed opposites. your style made me smile, but the story made me sorry.

sythesis.
synergy.


the sum total is greater than the individual pieces.
keep it together.
stay strong. maintain.

 

[lionking]

Thank you, Victor. I just felt constantly rejected and ignored, unwanted, by some people, online and real life, and I know what I feel might not always be justified. I am always concluding rejection out of things. I think it has just gone too unhealthy. Sometimes I just have to walk away from conversations and people

 

[Shyshark]

Hey Ian ...

I think perhaps what you are experiencing here at MS are the feelings of a newbie becoming a regular.
At the beginning it is a whirlwind romance of exploring new relationships and the excitement of finding a place like MS where you feel you finally belong ....
and it's is now calming into a less feverish but more mature and rewarding relationship with the community.
It is natural that people who have met each other and have become friends 'settle in' and there is no longer an all consuming need to explore each other.
Instead ... a deep and abiding relationship is formed based on what you know about each other and nurtured over time by new experiences to be shared ...
joyful and sad.

A few will become very close and love you, many will be your friend and like you ... and the rest will just share space ... some less kindly than others.
Newbies come and the excitement of new found friends is tempered by the loss of old friends who simply drift away. These may be rekindled ... but not always all.
This is life my young friend ... and it is in many ways the same in the real world.
People come ... people stay ... people go.

I think you and I are much the same in that we are far too sensitive to feelings of rejection ... and worse yet of being accepted and then alienated by those
we thought were trustworthy. Remember ... this is often how we feel ... and most often it isn't true.

Miracles are rare ... but life might toss you one or two ... and ... lol ... you probably won't even know it.
Wishes do come true ... trust me ... they do.
Your life, my young friend, lay before you ... full of challenges ... full of rewards.
Rejoice in the good ... endure the bad ... and like the rest of us ...
just do the best you can.

... and I love your poem

( I don't care what the guys think ... they can be twisted if they want ... )

From me to you ... (((puppy)))

Shawn

 

[Michael196555]

That poem was simply wonderful and sad at the same time. Keep doing it!!

Michael196555

 

[lionking]

Thank you guys for all your words