ANYBODY OUT THERE

ANYBODY OUT THERE
J

JLHOPE

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Is there anybody out there hows made it
threw sb. I've been working on the fact
that I was abused as a child for about
1 year, I really belived that I was making
alot of progress. I met someone wonderfull
and was enjoying a open realationship with
her. I was honest about how I am and what
happend to me. Then the pain came came back
and hit me harder then ever, I call it the ride,
I've felt this before, for as for back as I can
remember this fealing of being smotherd in a blanket of ICK. The realationship failed, again. Will it ever end will I ever be
OK, can I ever be happy? Somebody please tell me
they made it, ANYBODY..
 
JLHope, you made it, we all did. The hurt you have, is shared by us all. I remember putting my thoughts away, thinking like you, that I had gotten over it, it then comes crashing back.

To me, it is like being in an ocean bobbing up and down, fighting the waves, gasping for air.

Things will get better, we are all in here, at various stages of recovery. I welcome you, keep your mind safe and grounded in here.

You have made the first step in posting here, that is the hardest one, but you will find more answers to the things you face than anywhere else on the planet,

take care,

ste
 
Thank you 2K4. I'm scared to death that I,ll never be able to live a fullfiling life, as long as nobodys gets to close I'm ok. Isolation and running from the pain, protecting others from the darkness I feal by cutting them off. This has become so automatic that I still do it even when I dont want to. It's like wanting the one thing you cant have, the harder you fight for it the stronger the pain becomes, until I cant take it anymore and just give up on my dream of there being a happy life for me. I need to know the fight is worth fighting.
 
JLHOPE,
Yes, you can be happy and you absolutely will be happy. Do the memories go away? Does the pain go away? Never completely. But you can put the memories and pain away, something like quaranteening a virus, locked away in a place that you don't need to deal with every day.
This doesn't mean that you shouldn't come to some resolutions about what happened to you. Places like this help and certainly therapy helps. Eventually, hopefully, the SA will only be a very small part of your history and life. Peace, Andrew
 
I remember a friend once that suffered from boils. I don't know exactly how these things work within the body, but I remember that he would get one - it would rise & then subside & then return elsewhere on his body. It never properly went away until he went to the Doctor & had it lanced.

When it was lanced, the Doctor jabbed it with some sort of sterile needle which allowed the puss to escape. Afterwards, the wound gradually faded until there was only a very small mark remaining - you had to know it was there to see it!

I think it's the same with abuse - the more we talk about it, the more it subsides. Yes there will be some sort of scar remaining - one that we can deal with.

I've lanced dozens of boils this year - have I made it through...very nearly.

Dec 18th last year I cracked up and was close to suicidal ...I'm now pretty close to taking my abuser to court. It could have been my funeral last January...it's bloody well not going to be for a long time yet if I can help it!

Yes you can get through - it's not easy, but yes you can do it!

Think positive...best wishes ...Rik.
 
It does get better. Even if ings seem to fall apart again, they keep getting put back more solid. Two years ago I was desparately isolated, hardly anyone knew I existed. Now recently I'm hurt because a friend I like is very busy. So I decided to call someone else. That's a huge gain.

There's always new struggles, but the rewards get better.

Keep beleiving in yourself. You can get through this.

Jim
 
It takes a while and a whole lot of hard work. For the longest time I was sure we never really get completely over what happend, however, now I think it can be done. Click here to read my Survivor Story .

You (and anyone else) should feel free to PM me if you have any questions. No question is out of bounds, I've heard them all so don't worry about offending me.

Take care,
 
I'm deeply touched by the support I'm seeing here. It's giving me some hope that happiness exists. I needed to read about succsess,
to know it is real. Thank You

I'm in the middle of a dark dangerous place right know, its coming in waves of intenes pain
then alittle peace.
Hopefully the worst is over for today. I'm so damn exhausted.
Its always darkest before the dawn

OK how ever stoled the sun just put
it back and we want file charges.
 
JL
yes, there is 'hope'

And you use 'hope' as part of your nickname here, if there wasn't such a thing you might have been "JLno-hope"

It often feels like a no hope situation, but if you're not scared of a bit of hard work, some new experiences and emotions, then your life will once again have all the hope you need.
Dave
 
Hello, and welcome here.

Yes, there IS hope. We do heal, we do get past this. I would not have thought that a year and half ago. I was having panic and flashbacks every day, almost continuous all day, couldn't eat or sleep, lost almost forty pounds. But here I am, a year and half later, and things are VERY MUCH better. Yes, there is still some episodes of flashbacks, there is still some fear and panic, there is still emotional responses to things that 'regular' person may not have. But for most part, my life now is 'normal', my days are pretty regular, I have a life. I am mostly, most of the time, happy. And I have faith that it becomes even better then this.

Please find yourself worthy of healing, and continue the good things you have been doing for yourself. And know that this site and the people here are available to you also. Good luck.

leosha
 
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