Anxiety dealing with people

[martin]

Thanks everyone,

It has been a lot of help hearing from everyone. Everyone's perspective and circumstances appear to so similar and so different at the same time.

I think it is just the whole complexity of the situation. My parents were neglectful and critical but at the same time they always did give and insist I take the essentials food, shelter, occasional help paying bills. I did live with my parents longer than normal--off and on for most of my twenties, so I do feel some obligation for extended support. At the same time during that period they continued to ignore me emotionally.

I think, well am pretty sure, that I just need to say something. Get something out there just to relieve myself. I've been working on it, trying to write it out. Just haven't got it yet or maybe there is no it to get. Like Nike says maybe I gotta "Just do it."

I do feel that I am my own person and must live for myself. On my own terms. I guess I am just figuring out what I want those terms to be.

I didn't go see them or stop by, my car hasn't been running well so I didn't want to risk the 30 mile drive. I did call and talk briefly though.

I'm working on it. Thank you all so much for your support.

Aaron

 

[dwf]

Aaron,

You're doing great, guy! You're in the right place, asking the right questions and getting some damned good feedback from people who do care about you and even love you in a very respectful way.

It's such a help to me to get to watch and participate in these struggles that we all go through trying to recover from the damage of sexual abuse.

When you share your experience with me like you're doing here, maybe it will mean that I don't have to keep making the same mistakes over and over again because I can learn from what you so generously share with me.

Thanks, buddy. You are a wonderful man because of what you have inside you. You're a really courageous human being because of the way you are willing to confront and challenge the abuse in your past.

Thankfully for me and for others you are a most generous man for sharing yourself with us.

Keep your head up high, Aaron.

You have survived what many have not.

Keep coming back here.

It's good for all of us.

Regards, your brother,