JTT, I don't know anything about biopsies but it sounded scary and I just wanted to wish you well. i hope things work out ok. And I second Mark's advice on being good to yourself and treating yourself to a little something now and then. I started getting a 1/2 hr massage once a week. Now I do not wake up with all the regular aches and pains everyday (I wish I could have a nice, relaxing panic attack just once). To make up for the cost of the massage, I made myself reduce the booze the same amount to pay for it. goals and rewards my friend.
As a Survivor with extremely low self esteem, I found that I had no problem spending and doing to make life nice for others, my wife, parents, friends. But had a really hard time justifying anything for myself. You are worth it! go buy youself an icecream cone. haha
Jack