Another Adrenaline high.

Another Adrenaline high.
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MrEdd

Registrant
I've been up since 1:00 AM Monday this time.

Crap I hate this shit.


Suicide is painless,
It Brings on many changes,
And I can take or leave it if I please.

That damned song won't go away.

Make it stop.
 
Mr. Edd: Think a bit. That is not the answer. Do you want them to win. God knows I have tried it and I have been there. But they win cause you are shut up forever. Dont let that happen. Think of the other Song. "Cause this is my Life". Your perp or perps are the ones that should take the permanent solution. We were robbed. It is easy to think about that. As a matter of fact I did last night but that thing about winning took over again. When I was abused and when I was on the street there were winners and losers ( me being the latter). I will not be a loser again. So help me god. Think of your wife and your close friends. Are they better off without you. No f**king way. Get mad, beat a pillow but dont surrender. Think of it that way. No surrender ever.
 
Mr. Ed.

Please look in the phone book for a suicide hotline. If you are in therapy call your T. DON"T let your perp win. I know it is tough. But don't give in. You have friends that care about you here.

John
 
Hi Edwin,

Sorry to hear you are having a problem being hyper. Have you talked to your physician about your sleep problems? There are solutions for that.

Suicde is of course something we need to avoid completely. But even the thought of it means a person is in a whole lot of pain. You say that the words of the song won't go away. Sounds to me like you need to replace those words with other words. Usually, replacement works, but it demands lots of working at it.

John suggests you call a crisis center if you get so down that suicide seems tempting. That is a good idea.
If you really do not trust yourself, and you don't get help from the crisis center call 911 and talk to them. They will send police to your address and take you to a hospital for three days. You will have their attention for sure.

Edwin, do you have any idea of what it is that gives you the adreniline problem? There are solutions, but it may take tiime to find them. You and your doc need to work as a team.

Please check in, and hopefully you will have had a good sleep and be feeling better. Keep reminding yourself that you are an adult, you are safe, your tormentors can't harm you now. Try to visualize a safe, pleasant place from your past, a place you can go to and get some relief and experience joy or beauty again.

Take care friend. Eventually, it gets to be a whole lot better.

Bob
 
MrEdd, fellow survivor, here's a better song for you:

Well I won't back down
No I won't back down
You could stand me up at the gates of Hell
But I won't back down
No I'll stand my ground
Won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from draggin' me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won't back down.

Hey, baby. There ain't no easy way out.
Hey, I will stand my ground.
And I won't back down.

Well I know what's right
I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin' me around
But I'll stand my ground
And I won't back down.

Hey, baby. There ain't no easy way out.
Hey, I will stand my ground.
And I won't back down.

Hey, baby. There ain't no easy way out.
Hey, I won't back down
Hey, baby. There ain't no easy way out.
Hey, I will stand my ground
And I won't back down.

"I Won't Back Down" by Tom Petty

My personal "Survival Anthem"

Victor
 
Mr Edd's wife Kim has posted about Edwin on the Family & Friends forum.

He's not so good at the moment, but I know he's going to be in our thoughts.

Dave
 
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