So, I got into a yelling match with a manager at work today and told him to go fuck himself. I feel like shit, now. The whole reason I started going to see a therapist again was because I wanted to stop losing my temper at work. I'm just tired of feeling like more of a problem than a help. I'm ashamed that I lose control like this. I know that it's tied to my depression (which seems more and more like manic-depression) and my self destructive thinking patterns. It feels like looking for a solution just makes the problem worse. It feels like the problem is me and that nobody should have to be required to deal with me because of this shit. I know I wouldn't want to have to deal with me.