Angels exist? Trigger?

Angels exist? Trigger?
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RICK57

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It's 18 months (approx) since I first came here.

I had no trust in anyone else, no self belief and I was just about broken - somehow I had a good job, but 18 months ago is when I had a major breakdown (long story).

I've just got got back from Budapest (Hungary) where I've been for my birthday (June 29th). We have cheap airlines in the UK now & total cost was around 120 for 3 nights.

I've just about worn myself out with walking about (even though we extensively used travel passes).

What am I rambling on about? Had a great time (would take pages to write here).

The relevant bit:

We found a rock bar (the louder & faster the better for those that don't know my tastes). There were 3 live bands on (no entry fee) and 'black beer' for 1 per pint....excellent. Someone spilled their beer on the floor in front of the band & I skidded on it & went down big style (I was jumping around enjoying myself - once a rocker, always a rocker).

The amazing bit:

Everyone around me just leant down and put their hands under me & lifted me up - they fed me to the front of the stage. I did my first crowd surf at 48 years old. It felt like I had been picked up by angels.

I still have problems with trust, but this bunch of Hungarians helped to take me one step further. They didn't care about my age, they were more impressed that I still hadn't found my 'Greenwoods Button'.

What I am saying is that: There are people everywhere that will pick you up and support you - this site has shown me that. My friends have shown me that (although some still do not know exactly how to deal with my issues, they do care). People at work have picked me up and supported me - some know when I am down and actively try to help me.

The most important thing of all, is that I had given up 18 months ago - I have currently lived for 18 months that I might not have, had I not found this site!

Still waiting for a date for the Court Case. I can handle the time in court, it's all the waiting that's difficult.

Best wishes...Rik
 
RiK;

I'm not sure exactly what the problems are that you refer to, but you are right... there are those rare moments that our faith in people is renewed. I'll give you an example: I recently had a book fair at school to raise money for the library. There were students who came and discovered that they were a little short on the final price of the books. I told them that I trusted them and to bring the money when they had it. Every one of them, without fail, returned with the money.
I know that this doesn't compare to trust issues with CSA, but I hope that I reinforced the fact that if we show a little trust in people, most of the time they WILL come through.
That is so great that you had that kind of experience in Budapest and yes, there are angels living in the world!

SD
 
Rick

There are angels everywhere I very much expect that whilst surfing you came into contact with other survivors ... .. thats an awsome thought as is the thought ... ... I wonder if they are in recovery.

Yes waiting for trials to start are a pain as I found out waiting for my two turns to give evidence within a court of law and I am going for third . This predator is being committed for trail later this month.

Back to angels. I have my very own, my wife Margaret.

Kirk

"If only they had touched on CSA in Africa or anywhere else for that matter at Live 8, wherever there is chaos there will be abusers of children" - Kirk
 
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