For starters, I find it useful to count how many times I say "I'm sorry" for things that are absolutely not my fault It's an awareness game that has helped me.
That's obvious, or it is to me. When this was raw as a kid, I was always the source of arguments about my behaviour. Don't get me wrong, I was a good kid, but I caused problems, by always being sick, always tired for school, and keeping them awake at night because of night problems.
The above is only the tip, so I was conditioned to thinking everything that went wrong was my fault. For a time, even the kids at school would compound it through manipulation, teachers did it, everyone did, until I hit back.
The emotional abuse is secondary abuse, but it is buried in the adult psyche to this day.
Only the other day, I told my boss, hey, not everything that goes wrong is my fault.
You guessed it!
Even today it goes on, and I am sick and tired of putting people right.
I agree with the others, it can't possibly be your fault, or my whole perception of my place in the world is totally wrong!
Seriously, when you start feeling that way, try to go back, like track it, and find out what you could have done to make it your fault. And then apply that to someone else, and ask yourself, 'If X was in this position, would I think it his fault?' Probably not.
Everything has always been my fault, and I am always the one in the wrong in any disagreement. I have never been able to figure out how someone with so much talent, intelligence and experience could possibly be so consistently incorrect.
For fact checking I now use Goggle. I dont report my findings but they reassure me. Too bad there isnt an internet search engine that answers emotional questions. Never once in my entire life have I had an emotional disagreement with someone and been the one in the right.
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