All Lies...........

All Lies...........
The lies then:

If I show that I don't like it, I won't have anyone to play with

This is all I'm good for

Unconditional love comes from having sex with a man

Everyone can see how dirty I am


And the lies continue:

If I make him mad, he'll hurt me
(I'm mid 30-s. He's almost 60.)
Don't push them away or they'll never love me

I'm only as good as what I do

I'll never be good enough

If I don't look good, no one will like me

Everyone can see that I'm flawed inside

If I let you down, you'll stop loving me

If I stand up for myself, everyone will hate me
 
This is Truth,

1)Don't talk to Strangers.

2)Don't accept anything from Strangers...

I wear this Truth with a heavy heart.

I weep for the mistake(s) I have made...

Whicker
 
The common lies which I've come across are as follows:

You were flirting, so you obviously asked for/wanted it.

Homosexuals deserve it, their sexual orientation is one which automatically means they'll like "sex", or getting raped.

You are weak or not "manly" if another man over-powers you.

Male on male rape can only happen in prisons.
 
Lie:
Leave the dog at home - it will be frightened by the guns!
Truth:
It would have bitten your sodding head off!

Lie:
Everybody does this, no one talks about it.
Truth:
Judging by the comments here, a lot of people did but it looks as though only 50% of them knew what was going on. If it had been talked about, all hell would have broken loose.

Lie:
You're a little shark (implying that I was something special).
Truth:
I was never your shark. How many sharks swam in your sea? Well this one is much bigger now, it's got teeth and it's coming back to bite you - hope you're looking forward to your third appearance in court this Thursday. Hope you enjoyed having your name in the local community paper. Hope you enjoyed reading what the charges are against you. Hope your neighbours invited you in for some special tea. Hope at least one of the others that have approached the police since your name appeared; will now make a statement. You can argue against one statement against you, but if this becomes 2 / 3?

Lie:
You will be a better man when I have taught you. You only mentioned one other 'friend' as an example - 'a real man in the army with a beautiful wife and 2 really nice kids'.
Truth:
You didn't name him, but I worked out who it is. He is now divorced and always looks troubled. That is not a better man.

Lie:
You lied to yourself thinking that you were always going to get away with it. I lied to myself thinking that you had got away with it and that there was nothing I could do about it after so long.
Truth:
You haven't got away with it and now you know it. It's now nearly 36 years on & you are in big trouble. If the court case succeeds, then I bet a lot more paedophiles will start sweating!

I've had it with the lies - he doesn't want to know about the truth.

Best wishes ..Rik
 
For a friend who can not come here:

It is lie that women can not abuse men and boys, specialy when it starts when you are to young to speak.

It is lie that mother's have to 'teach' sons of sex in that way.

It is lie that you deserve to die because things you done.

It is lie that what things you done later were your 'choice', it was no choice, it was being still a child who did not know.

It is a lie that you are joke, or loser, or anything else anyone negative call you. Listen only to the words of people you respect, and that are good for you.

Andrei
 
this is a lie
he will kill me if i tell

a lie
he wont hurt me today

a lie
it doesnt hurt anymore cuz im used to it

a lie
i will forget this

a lie
the bruises dont hurt

a lie
im not afraid of him anymore
 
Lies I believed as a boy:

1. If I tell, no one will believe me.
2. If I tell, I will get thrown out of the house.
3. If I tell, it will break up my family.
4. He likes me and Im special to him.
5. If I didnt want this I could have said no.
6. Theres nothing to be scared about.
7. I am alone.
8. He just wants to talk this time.
9. He just wants to give me a ride home.
10. I should listen to him and not to my heart.
11. Secrets like this are okay.
12. He did it to me now I should do it to him.
13. I dont deserve any better than this.
14. There isnt anything better than this.
15. This is happening to me because Im a sissy.
16. This was all my idea.
17. If I let him do this he wont rape me.
18. It has happened so many times it doesnt matter anymore.
19. Getting hard means I like it.
20. No one can help me.
20. Im a big boy I shouldnt cry about this.
21. I am powerless.

All lies. And I know that now. But here are some that I still struggle with:

1. A drink will calm me down.
2. It was my fault somehow.
3. I dont need help.
4. If I tell my Dad it will kill him.
5. If I tell my son he wont love me anymore.
6. It doesnt matter because it was so long ago.
7. Its better to just forget it and pretend it didnt happen.
8. I cant talk about it.
9. Im a man I shouldnt cry about this.
10. I am powerless.

There! I said it!

Larry
 
Here are a couple for the record:

Lies I was told to facilitate the abuse:
1. If I do these things I can be part of a special club ( For the record, there is no special club - lesson learned)
2. To be a member of the club these things have to be kept secret
3. I will have friends ( I had none at the time)
4. I am dirty for agreeing to do these things
5. I am stupid and careless
 
My abuser held me by my hair & had his thumbs at the edges of my eyes. If my teeth scraped him he would press with his thumbs & it really hurt. He made me think if i bit him he would pop my eyes. That lie still scares me.

Kev
 
God damn I can't get these out of my head.

Lies

You're a girl if you do this.
Everyone knows your gross and sick.
Grown Ups don't lie.
Grown Ups can't lie.
My dad is gonna come back and stay for good.
My dad loves me.
My dad won't leave again.
He loves me even though he hits me, he won't do it again, he said he's sorry.
I deserve what happened cos my daddy left.
I made my daddy leave.
I have to be strong for everybody, can't make them cry. Have to make eveyrbody happy, nobody shouldn't be happy; only me.
Have to be strong for my sister.
Can't cry, never ever cry!!! :mad:


I wish I didn't cry anymore, maybe one day all my tears will be cried out and I won't be able to feel anymore. :( :( :(
 
I will cut your dick off, slice it up like pepperoni, put it on a pizza and eat it.
 
The biggest lie of them all:

"I love you."

How many times did the motherfucker say this, I don't know, but one thing is sure - he NEVER fucking loved me! :mad: :mad: :mad: :(

Scot
 
Lie...'You haven't progressed'.

Bullshit. Every day we awaken, we progress. Every day we live, we learn. Every day we survive, we become stronger. Learning, strength, that is progress.

Leosha
 
For the lies I may be the most pissed off. They have played in my head but I had never listened to them before. I had the courage to listen to them all the way, and that's when I heard his voice. Damn him to hell!!

"you're gay, you're such a faggot, stop crying you little girl..."

"if you tell your mom and dad they will be crushed that your such a faggot doing faggot things"

The sick f****** bastard. If he weren't already dead I'd make him hurt and make him hurt bad. I am stronger than him, sh** he's a f****** coward. He can no longer say those things in my head - or at least I'll know they are his.
 
all lies


If you can't remember it is not important.
I am protecting you from your father.
I know what is best for you.
Everything is your fathers fault.
You are learning disabled.
You are my favorite.


Now that they are shared they have lost thier power.
Jonathan
 
My first post here. Thanks for this thread.

THIS IS A LIE:
It's just something that happened to me. But, it didn't affect me.

THIS IS A LIE:
"You're FAGGOT."

THIS IS A LIE:
If I tell her, she won't leave me.

THIS IS A LIE:
"You're gay. Just admit it and then learn to be happy with your life. I need to find a real man to love me."

THIS IS A LIE:
I've beaten this SA. I've acknowledged it. It's part of me...and I'm cured.

Thank you all for your courage here.
Space
 
Wow, this is an amazing idea. It is very helpful just reading the lies posted by everyone. I have not finished reading them all yet, and most lies have been covered already. So I will post the biggest most harmful lie that I keep telling to myself.

THIS IS A LIE!!!

You are alien, you are different, you don't fit in, and don't belong here.
 
How about this one I have to live with today:


A MALE CAN NOT BE SEDUCED/MOLESTED/RAPED BY A FEMALE. MALES ARE ALWAYS PERPETRATORS AND FEMALES ARE ALWAYS VICTIMS. IT IS ALWAYS THE MALES INSTINCTIVE SINFUL FAULT REGARDLESS IF HE IS 3 YEARS OLD.

Come to the Southern Baptist Convention capitol of Nashville, Tennesssee, and let me see anyone get another person to publically say this isn't true, at this very day in time.

Tom S. in Tn.
 
Lies I told myself (I didn't even NEED prompting!):

At the time the abuse began:

Because I may be gay, this is not sexual abuse (completely disregarding the vast age difference).

After years of acting out - sexually and with drugs:

If ANYone deserves AIDS, I do.

(This is/was such a lie on many levels. As if ANYone deserves AIDS. And as if, because I acted out as an adult, I deserved it more!)

I put it all back on my first perps.

Kenn
 
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