All Lies...........

All Lies...........
This thread needs to be visible again, at least for me.

In the patchwork memory of the first night, I see myself, physically numb on the damn mattress on the fucking floor, and I'm asking the perp, "What are you doing?"

"I'm not doing anything," he lied.
 
This is a lie:
I am a liscensed therapist and I want to help YOU.
This is a lie:
I am a liscensed therapist and I want to HELP you.
This is a lie:
I am a liscensed therapist and I WANT to help you.
This is a lie;
I am a LISCENESED THERAPIST and I want to help you.
THIS IS A LIE:
I am a liscensed therapist, and you alone obviously have some misinterpretations about sex.
Tom S.

Quote: In these times of economic uncertainty, it is easy to see who is dedicated to professional health care, and who is in it for the money.
 
A few lies:
I could have run away
I liked it
It wasn't as bad as being beaten
it happens to all boys, so its normal
it is Gods will
I am to blaim, because I took money
I am gay, so I must like what happened

Not a lie:

I did not like it, I hated it, I did not understand, I wanted them to leave me alone, I wanted to disappear, I was scared, I was ashamed. I still am.
 
And the biggest lie of all:

It was my own fault, for being such a cute boy.
If I was ugly, it would not have happend
 
Brilliant thread

Its a lie
That all adults are responsable

Its a lie
That I'm useless

Its a lie
That I'm gay

Its a lie
That I'm a pervert

Its a lie
That I'm compareable to the people that killed so many on 9/11

Its a lie
That I was sixteen or legal

Its a lie
That all sex is dirty

Its a lie
That masturbation leads to blindness

Its a lie
That the recent "witchunt" in the UK is the fault of the media (and not of the abusers)

Its a lie
That I'm going mad

However IT IS TRUE.......that I'm a bloody good grandad, and thats good enough for me ;)

And all that was left was hope :)

Kirk :cool:

PS: Its also a lie
That Ringo was a good drummer
 
Brilliant thread

Its a lie
That all adults are responsable

That's for sure Kirk!

Its a lie
That I'm useless

No way!

Its a lie
That I'm gay

Its a lie
That I'm a pervert

Its a lie
That I'm compareable to the people that killed so many on 9/11

Huh? :confused:

Its a lie
That I was sixteen or legal

Its a lie
That all sex is dirty

Its a lie
That masturbation leads to blindness

Good thing or I woulda been totally blind years ago. :eek: No not bragging :( just had to say it before someone else did. :D

Its a lie
That the recent "witchunt" in the UK is the fault of the media (and not of the abusers)

Its a lie
That I'm going mad

However IT IS TRUE.......that I'm a bloody good grandad, and thats good enough for me ;)

Right on Kirk!

And all that was left was hope :)

Kirk :cool:

PS: Its also a lie
That Ringo was a good drummer
Kirk that's the main one I don't agree with but who is an Italian-American to argue with a citizen of the UK about this anyway? ;)

Victor
 
Its a LIE

I understand how you feel

Its a lie

Just talk to me

its a lie

Talk and it will make you feel better ( WHEN)

sorry

confused n alone
 
This is a lie:
I am a freak.

This is a lie:
I can't show anyone who I really am.

This is a lie:
I'm a crazy effed up loser.

Thank you all for naming the lies out loud. I have to get these out of my system. Thanks for bringing this topic back up.

Ken
 
There are more new guys coming around, and there are more lies I want to expose.

This is a lie:
It's not a big deal. I can handle it.

This is a lie:
I wanted it. I asked for it.

This is a lie:
I can't ever get better.

This is a lie:
Everyone can see that I'm dirty and unworthy.

This is the biggest lie (to me) of all:
Suicide is a way out.
 
Biggest of lie: "If you let me do this, I not hurt anyone else"
 
April 1961
GOD WANT'S YOU TO DO THIS FOR ME
MAY 61
I beleieve you Tom but if you go to the police all the boys and girls will know what Father Ryan did to you.
July 61
We the members of the church board find your story unbeleiveable.
 
So many of these lies are consistent with what I was told!!!

The perp: My ex-brother-in-law.
Lies I've heard and believed...

It's a lie... from perp:
Don't tell anyone, especially anyone in your family. They just would not understand what we have.

It's a lie... from perp:
Wow, you must have been expecting this. You are all ready for me and look how big you are.

It's a lie... from perp:
No one will every make you feel like this again.
Women, don't understand what a man really wants.

It's a lie...
Gifts from the perp are not gifts... they
are bribes and "rewards". Neither of which
were really wanted.

It's a lie... overheard mother talking:
"XXXX and his father never really did get along."
"He really never forgave his father for letting it happen."
Fact is... I told my mother. She said not to tell my father because he wouldn't be able to handle it.
The real lie? NOT ADDRESSING THE PROBLEM and blaming someone else for not doing something about it.

It's a lie... from perp:
"This time you don't have to swollow"
The truth... I didn't have a choice.

It's a lie... unspoken lie:
He cared about me. It's confusing because I don't
know what it's like to be close to a guy. I want guy friends but NOT a boyfriend.

It's a lie... personal.
Every guy out there has had it better than me.
Why can't I be like them.

It's a lie...
"He must be gay. If not, then why did he do it then and for so long.
The truth: Exreme fear, and an abusive father. There was no choice.

It's a lie... from mother:
"Just go with him, you're just going for a ride"
Right... just a ride.

A horrible lie... !
I told my sister about the perp. She said she would watch for it, and it shouldn't happen.
All of her 3 boys were molested. And still? Nothing was done about it!
Looking the other way is a big lie and betrayal.
Again, blame someone else.

The horrible secret?
My sister and brother were also molested by the same man. Punishment for the perp? Nada, zilch, zero. It's disgusting.

It's 25 years later, and I'm still impacted by the abuse that lasted almost 2 1/2 years.

It's hard reading all of these posts... but I'm glad I'm not alone.

Thank you everyone for sharing and god bless you!
 
Reader
I'm saddened that the list of lies keeps growing, but it always will I fear.

Your lies are our lies now, once shared a secret, and a lie, loses it's grip on us.

Stick around, there's good support and friendship here, that's the truth.

Dave
 
Guys - lies are sometimes hard to verbalize because for so long we thought they were true! Some lies I encountered:

* It's your fault
* Just don't let them touch you
* My body doesn't belong to me
* Anybody can do whatever they want to me
* You're not strong enough to ever stop
being a victim
* You can only be my friend if you let
me have sex with you
* You liked it because you got an erection
* It my was my fault cause it felt good
* Nobody can stop others having sex wih me
* I'm a dirty, pervert, sinful, slutty
sex crazed boy ( at 5)
* If you love me, you'll let me have sex
* Everybody does it, just don't tell your
parents
* If you tell, I'll tell them you did it
first
* There's no way you'll ever be clean
* You can't stop having sex with everybody
for the rest of your life
* Everybody will know that I've been used
for sex
* I'm broken for life - no hope, no rescue
* If you ever knew the real me, you would
see I really am rotten and no good
* You will never have anything good
* You deserve crap from everybody

THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE LIES that screwed up my head and kept my walls high, thick and impregnable. These lies were locked deep behind my walls to keep my inner self dark, smelly and sick.

AS I LET LIGHT COME THROUGH THE WALLS, the lies were seen for just what they are!!! The more light the less lies...Light takes the darkness away; the walls fall and life begins for real!

Howard
 
Outis,

Thanks for this image:

In the patchwork memory of the first night, I see myself, physically numb on the damn mattress on the fucking floor, and I'm asking the perp, "What are you doing?"
It must have been hard to write. I just want you to know that it is helpful to me.

Green
 
Green,

I remember writing it, and you're right, it was hard. But it was worth it. I'm glad it helped.

Thanks,

Joe
 
It's a lie that I'm not still carrying around some of these lies -
 
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