All Lies...........

All Lies...........
D

Don-NY

Registrant
Help me out here guys. There are lies we were told, lies we absorbed, and lies we told ourselves in order to cope.

We've learned better now. So let's just list them here. List something that YOU NOW KNOW IS NOT TRUE AND NEVER WAS!!!!!!

What I know is a lie can help you. What you know is a lie can help me. Please help me.

No need for comments, just list them like this.

THIS IS A LIE:
I can't tell anyone what happened to me.

THIS IS A LIE:
I am a dirty, nasty, sick, perverted little freak.

THIS IS A LIE:
I can't do [whatever], because I might have a good time and feel happy, and I don't deserve to.

THIS IS A LIE:
I will never be able to manage this or my life.
 
This is a lie:
"If any part of the abuse was pleasurable you were a willing participant"

This is a lie:
"You made me do it."

This is a lie:
"It's our secret"

This is a lie:
"If you liked that it means you're defective, unworthy, a bad person."

These are just some of the lies I was told and I believed for years. All lies don't have to be spelled out for us. Some of the worst ones are the subtle lies that we cling to because to show them to be just lies would mean that we were fooled by someone we trusted and maybe even loved.

Steve
 
THIS IS A LIE

This is all I deserve

THIS IS A LIE

I enjoyed it

THIS IS A LIE

I am not normal

Lloydy
 
This is a lie:

You're a little girl.

This is a lie:

You're a little faggot.

This is a lie:

You'll never amount to anything.

This is a lie:

There's no use in talking about the past
 
I do this to you because I love you.

I do this because God says I should

You're a reject.

Don't cry, be a man (as I was getting beat).

I'm just a viewing picture for my abuser.

Why can't you do anything right?

THESE ARE ALL LIES AND I HATE EACH ONE OF THEM!
 
Good idea Don! Let's see:

THESE ARE ALL LIES:

"I am defective."

"I could never satisfy a woman/partner."

"I will never amount to anything."

"I am hopeless."

"Noone could ever love me."

"I am not a real man."

"I am not man enough."

"My abusers truly cared for me/loved me."

"I am worthless."

"There is no hope."

"I am trash."

"I will never find a good job."

"I will never find someone to love."

"I can't survive on my own."

"My life is pointless."

"I won't survive."

"I cannot defend myself."

"This is a stupid exercise."

"It is safe to include my perpetrators in my life today."

Wow, I could go on and on. Thanks for this post Don!

rafael :)
 
THIS IS A LIE:
I will never be real in front of people

THIS IS A LIE:
I will fuck up the most important things in my life--my marriage, my job, my friendships....

THIS IS A LIE:
I am helpless

THIS IS A LIE:
I will never be happy

THIS IS A LIE:
The way I feel now will always be the way I feel

THIS IS A LIE:
I'm just fine
 
Don, this is a really great idea/post! Here is my list:

If you only knew the truth about me, you would not like me either.

There is no me I am the product of chance

I can not find a me that I can depend on when I really need answers there is no truth in me

I will never be happy

I am a freak of nature

I am the only one like this:
Who doesnt love his mother
Who cant function sexually
Who doesnt know what he wants

Never, no Never trust anyone

Numbness is better than pain

It will hurt too much to change

Women are icky and cant be trusted
 
THIS IS A LIE

I am a fuck up who will never stop sabotaging himself

THIS IS A LIE

I have never done anything worthwhile

THIS IS A LIE

Everybody thinks I'm some kind of freak

THIS IS A LIE

No one likes me for who I am

THIS IS A LIE

I don't like myself for who I am

THIS IS A LIE

My life is not worth living
 
:mad:

THESE ARE ALL LIES:

I am a mistake.

Survivors will never be really well.

I am ruined to my core.

It is my fault because I went back to the BSA.s

A REAL MAN would not have let this ruin his life!

As a teenager I could have fought him off.

You knew he would not really kill you.

All sex is filthy.

I am damned for what I did.
 
This is a lie:
"He was teaching me sex ed"

"I am a pervert"

"I asked for it"

"I wanted it because I went back to him"

"He loved me"

"I was special"
 
I've read several of the lies that others have written, and while I know that many of them are lies I still have a hard time believing they are lies.

The biggest lie that I keep getting told and not just by one person but several people is:

This is a lie:

It is YOUR problem ..... deal with it.

This is a lie:

Because you were an adult when it happened ..... it doesn't matter.

This is a lie:

You'd be nothing without me.

This is a lie:

What I'm doing to you is "therapy" .... I was assualted by my therapist

This is a Lie:

You deserved it .... because you are gay

This is a lie:

No one can understand how I am feeling ....... I believed this LIE until I met all of my wonderful "FRIENDS" here at NOMSV ...... Thanks for all your support guys .... I hope I can return it.

:) :) [/LIST]
 
This is a lie:

God loves you more than I do. God wants me to show you how much by touching you like this.

All boys do it at one point or another, it's normal.

You are the most selfish, self centered, egotistical, uncaring, unemotional person I have ever known.

If you let me suck it, it will get bigger, and you will be ready for sex with girls.

Bring your little boy friends over, then we can all have some fun together.

It's all in your head, it's not my problem.

I, the spouse, did not sign up for this crap when we got married.

"Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it"
 
Odd how we all have been told many of the same lies. Here's more

ITS A LIE WHEN
You are told "You can tell me anything" then when you do, you are thrown out.

ITS A LIE WHEN:
You are told "For better or worse until death do us part"

ITS A LIE WHEN:
You are told "Lets have a Party"

ITS A LIE WHEN:
There are certain things that "Boys your age Do"

ITS A LIE WHEN:
"Pray, this will go away"

IT's A LIE WHEN:
You will never amount to anything.

IT'S A LIE WHEN:
Here, give this to your mother, this will be our "Little secret"

IT'S A LIE WHEN:
"Thanks for the feel" Don't say anything

IT'S A LIE WHEN"
You have tried so many things and failed at them all.
Man what a vent
 
This is a lie:
It was just child's play

This is a lie:
I am unlovable

This is a lie:
I can't be trusted

This is a lie:
I will abuse because I was abused

I have lies buried that I can't even see
They shape me and hurt me and keep me from growing

I vow to let these lies go
 
THIS IS A LIE:
The abuse has fundamentally affected (changed or determined) my sexual orientation.
 
Some of the Lies,

I wanted it
I liked it.
I needed it.
It always made me feel good.
By doing it I had the best of both worlds.
He loved me.
He was there for me.
He cared for me.
He would never lie to me.

THE TRUTH

HE LIED!!!
HE MADE ME LIE!!!
 
I read one of the LIES that Orodo submitted:

"If you let me suck it, it will get bigger, and you will be ready for sex with girls."

The perpetrator who abused me used this LIE. He knew that I was insecure about the size of my penis, he knew that I wanted reassurance that I was normal, he knew that I trusted him like a big brother that I never had. He used all of that knowledge to manipulate me with that LIE. I was only eleven and I believed it then.

This is a LIE:

"I did it to you and you liked it, now you have to do it to me, it's only fair."

This post is so liberating for me. To spell out the lies we were told, to learn that we weren't the only ones who believed them, to finally see them for what they were so that we can move forward knowing the truth.

Truth:

"It wasn't my fault."

Thank you, Don NY, for starting this post. When you cast those ashes in the Alantic Ocean, I'll be casting some ashes up in a lake in the Sierra Nevadas, thanks for the inspiration.

Steve
 
These are lies that I put on myself as a kid.

I have to build a wall around my heart & soul and not let anyone in.

Stay invisable, don't attract attention, or someone will find out.

I must be gay because I liked it & went back.

I must be gay because I looked for gay sex on my own afterward.

Don't even think of having a girlfriend, girls wont like you. They will smell your shame like dog sh*t.

I'll never be a real man, I'll just have to fake it.

Uncle F loved me.

I have to become a CONTROL freak to keep from being vulnerable.

I held onto these lies until three four years ago (age 31 then). My wife came up with the name "the wall" for the prison I kept my heart in. It blew my mind away how
much the abuse & the lies shaped my life. It tainted every decision I made in my life, it probably still does to a degree.

~George~
 
THIS IS A LIE
The adults will believe me

The adults will help me

The adults will stop it happening

The adults will send the older boys away

THIS WAS MY TRUTH

The adults didn't believe me

The adults punished me

The adults didn't stop it happening

The adults joined in.

How I wish I could be on our Atlantic shore this Sunday to send this list to hell and back with Don.
Lloydy
 
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