Admission of me

[Leosha]

I just needed to say this, I think. There is so much posted here by so many people, and so much pain and emotions put into what is written. I need to confess, I can not often read full posts here. I go at another forum, one that is 'mixed' with males and females, although honest, there is just me and one other male who post regular. I come here, because I know that there is more understanding of male survivor issues. But, this is embarassing some, there is more warning of the sensitive 'triggers' there, to warn of post contents. Here, it is much more open, which can be good thing, but it sometimes is more scary at me, because the language is not so gentle, and there is more graphic descriptions of things, without warning. This is not to admonish of anything, that is not my intent. I just feel something as a wimp, because I can not handle such details so openly usual. And because of that, I can often not fully read posts or even responses. So I feel I fail some at here, that i can not be so much supportive or understanding of situations as I wish to be. I hope that this does not make me less useful here, or less trusted here. I just felt i needed to say this, because it is something I worry of.

Leosha

 

[The Dean]

Thank you Leosha. It is very hard for me to read some posts as well. But, I feel that in telling us about abuse, the man is helped some, and the truth is out.

It is a good reminder to make better use of TRIGGER warnings. You are certainly not a wimp. You are a sensitive and compassionate man, so you sometimes hurt for others. Then at other times, as is true for all of us, one man's post is something that sounds like a post we could have written ourselves.

You are wise to not read a post that makes you feel unsafe. We have enough trouble with that. Last night, as I was falling asleep I had awful terror strike me. I have no idea why that happened, but I felt I was about to be sexually assaulted again. It has been a very long time since that happened. If there was something I could do to make sure it would not happen again I would do that.

You are doing something to help yourself. You do not read posts that frighten you. That is a postitve action on your part. No need to apologize for that.

You take good care of yourself now.

Bob

 

[MM]

just feel something as a wimp, because I can not handle such details so openly usual. And because of that, I can often not fully read posts or even responses.

That happens to me too. I hardly read all the posts, most of the times I only read the ones with generic subjects, talking about drugs or therapy. I never read any of the stories on Stories Forum, I tried once but Ive got so many memories. And I know what you mean by feeling useless, Ive got so many advices here, everybody seems to know what they are talking about and I am always just listening, without helping anybody. I never know what to say when I read that some of you are in pain and need some words of support.

 

[Green]

Thank you Leosha for giving me words that I didn't have but were bothering me:

And because of that, I can often not fully read posts or even responses. So I feel I fail some at here, that i can not be so much supportive or understanding of situations as I wish to be. I hope that this does not make me less useful here, or less trusted here. I just felt i needed to say this, because it is something I worry of.

Thank you Mark for doing the same.

And I know what you mean by feeling useless, Ive got so many advices here, everybody seems to know what they are talking about and I am always just listening, without helping anybody. I never know what to say when I read that some of you are in pain and need some words of support.

Green

 

[Lloydy]

I never know what to say when I read that some of you are in pain and need some words of support.

Just by "being here" you support us all, we know we're not alone.

Dave

 

[Mike Church]

Guys: We are all brothers here. Leosha you said:

So I feel I fail some at here, that i can not be so much supportive or understanding of situations as I wish to be.

Brother you are not a failure. You are a courageous young man and as Dave says just being here helps us all.

It is give and take and leaning and caring. Isnt that what caring brothers do.