Accepting my female self
Ladybird
Registrant
I can't decide where to begin so let's start here: I am a trans woman. This is something I've known deep down forever but have only recently been able to accept.
Thanks to some very productive therapy sessions I was finally able to speak the words and discuss it openly with my therapist. I am taking things slow as this has been a rather earth-shattering epiphany for me.... so powerful because with my newfound clarity, it's also so obvious.
But for a long long time I would torture myself wondering whether these feelings were "real", or only caused by the abuse, or from some other factors, until I came to realize what's more important is not WHY my brain is "wired" the way it is, but to simply accept this IS how I'm wired. Regardless of what mixture of biology and experiences formed my developing brain, the percentages don't matter. What matters is knowing as fully as possible who I am, here and now, and then being the best person I can be. Denying truths about myself doesn't help anything.
Even though I'm in the early steps I feel transformed. My mind is sharper, my heart is happier, I feel a whole new strength of self that at times is almost overwhelming. It's as though a tremendous weight has been lifted from me, a burden full of shame, guilt, and grief.
I want to thank everyone I've interacted with here because you've all helped me in my journey, of which is this but one step, and remains ongoing. I expect I will lean on you again in the future so thank you in advance for that.
Sending hugs to all who wish for them!!!
Thanks to some very productive therapy sessions I was finally able to speak the words and discuss it openly with my therapist. I am taking things slow as this has been a rather earth-shattering epiphany for me.... so powerful because with my newfound clarity, it's also so obvious.
But for a long long time I would torture myself wondering whether these feelings were "real", or only caused by the abuse, or from some other factors, until I came to realize what's more important is not WHY my brain is "wired" the way it is, but to simply accept this IS how I'm wired. Regardless of what mixture of biology and experiences formed my developing brain, the percentages don't matter. What matters is knowing as fully as possible who I am, here and now, and then being the best person I can be. Denying truths about myself doesn't help anything.
Even though I'm in the early steps I feel transformed. My mind is sharper, my heart is happier, I feel a whole new strength of self that at times is almost overwhelming. It's as though a tremendous weight has been lifted from me, a burden full of shame, guilt, and grief.
I want to thank everyone I've interacted with here because you've all helped me in my journey, of which is this but one step, and remains ongoing. I expect I will lean on you again in the future so thank you in advance for that.
Sending hugs to all who wish for them!!!