About tears from watching The Legend of Bagger Vance
About tears from watching The Legend of Bagger Vance
The description on cable said:
Drama. Will Smith, Matt Damon, Charlize Theron. (2000) A golf caddy shows a disillusioned young war veteran how to master challenges and find meaning in life. Directed by Robert Redford. Based on the book by Steven Presfield
My description:
The young golfer had established himself as a successful golfer and fallen in love with the daughter of Savannahs leading elder. But, WWI calls him off where he leads his men into a slaughter, himself being the only survivor. Traumatized by it, he hides from his trauma only to return ten years later.
In the midst of the depression the town attracts the two most famous golf players to a tournament. They insist on the young golfer playing as the champion of Savannah with all the hopes of pride and recovery resting on his shoulders.
Throughout the 36 holes of play the mysterious caddy, Bagger Vance, helps him recover himself and to win the tournament and his girl as well. The story is told the his ball boy who watches it all and is remembering it in later life.
Then why did I cry all of the way through it? Why did it effect me so?
Because the movie was about overcoming the trauma
About finding the place that allows me to accept what happened
And the need to let myself be who I am, let myself be here, to experience here,
And because the little boy who sees this is like my inner child and he is talking to him directly
The caddy says: Its a game you can not win, you can only play it
And I cry - because I am overwhelmed with struggling to win/overcome my adversity
The caddy says: Now play the game, the one that was given to you when you came into the world
And I cry - because at birth and for a very short time it was the only time I felt whole, thats when it started and I began to lose the game I was given
And I cry because I cant remember what it was like to feel that whole - only brief moments when I felt present to myself
And I cry because I am scarred knowing that I must take aim let go of my symptoms be who I am and play todays game today
And I cry because something compels me right then to call my son, even though a couple hours earlier I was so angry at him for his behavior, and tell him I love him that I support him that I am proud of who he is and that I will be there for him always
And I cry because I realize that the song in my heart for so long has been: I feel like a motherless child and I have wanted so much to have a mother, to be loved by a mother, and to love my mother
And I cry because the pain has surrounded my heart making me an emotionless child - numbed unresponsive to others and ultimately making me utterly alone in this world
And I cry - because I want so much to play/live out my life being myself being present to myself being present to those around me my children my friends the children I work with
A calm comes over me,
And I wipe my tears because today I have named my pain, I have felt it on a deeper level
And I wipe my tears because today I have told the story of what I really felt and, in doing it, I am being present to myself.
The description on cable said:
Drama. Will Smith, Matt Damon, Charlize Theron. (2000) A golf caddy shows a disillusioned young war veteran how to master challenges and find meaning in life. Directed by Robert Redford. Based on the book by Steven Presfield
My description:
The young golfer had established himself as a successful golfer and fallen in love with the daughter of Savannahs leading elder. But, WWI calls him off where he leads his men into a slaughter, himself being the only survivor. Traumatized by it, he hides from his trauma only to return ten years later.
In the midst of the depression the town attracts the two most famous golf players to a tournament. They insist on the young golfer playing as the champion of Savannah with all the hopes of pride and recovery resting on his shoulders.
Throughout the 36 holes of play the mysterious caddy, Bagger Vance, helps him recover himself and to win the tournament and his girl as well. The story is told the his ball boy who watches it all and is remembering it in later life.
Then why did I cry all of the way through it? Why did it effect me so?
Because the movie was about overcoming the trauma
About finding the place that allows me to accept what happened
And the need to let myself be who I am, let myself be here, to experience here,
And because the little boy who sees this is like my inner child and he is talking to him directly
The caddy says: Its a game you can not win, you can only play it
And I cry - because I am overwhelmed with struggling to win/overcome my adversity
The caddy says: Now play the game, the one that was given to you when you came into the world
And I cry - because at birth and for a very short time it was the only time I felt whole, thats when it started and I began to lose the game I was given
And I cry because I cant remember what it was like to feel that whole - only brief moments when I felt present to myself
And I cry because I am scarred knowing that I must take aim let go of my symptoms be who I am and play todays game today
And I cry because something compels me right then to call my son, even though a couple hours earlier I was so angry at him for his behavior, and tell him I love him that I support him that I am proud of who he is and that I will be there for him always
And I cry because I realize that the song in my heart for so long has been: I feel like a motherless child and I have wanted so much to have a mother, to be loved by a mother, and to love my mother
And I cry because the pain has surrounded my heart making me an emotionless child - numbed unresponsive to others and ultimately making me utterly alone in this world
And I cry - because I want so much to play/live out my life being myself being present to myself being present to those around me my children my friends the children I work with
A calm comes over me,
And I wipe my tears because today I have named my pain, I have felt it on a deeper level
And I wipe my tears because today I have told the story of what I really felt and, in doing it, I am being present to myself.