Hello Elad, welcome to the "brotherhood." I know where you are coming from of being so good at keep it under wraps, I kept "forgetting" it all, until one day in 2003 when I had a nasty head injury, and it blew the cap off everything and wouldn't let me forget anymore.
About the little boy you were never allowed to be, maybe try to get in touch with that inner child a l;ittle bit, I do sometimes by just coloring or drawing or going to the park and going on the swings, and maybe sometimes just talk to your inner child, he's hurt too, and until his hurt starts to subside you won't be totally healthy.
Keep up with the therapy, it has been a life saver for me. Keep taking those steps forward because you are worth it.
Peace,
Scott