A Young Boy's Eyes

[Barkabus]

A Young Boy's Eyes

A young boy's eyes see porn for the first time.
What is this? What are they doing? Is his like mine?

Innocence lost, eyes cannot unsee
what others do in mock intimacy.

Normalcy skewed, the mind not immune,
sexual interest, awake much too soon.

A young boy's eyes now owned by porn’s addiction.
This isn’t love, it is full of contradiction.

Rescue the boy from these things profane.
Or his life will be lived in a soulless domain.

 

[Tom E.]

Barkabus
Very painful but beautifully expressed. Peace to you.

 

[Esterio]

Hi Barkabus

Thanks for sharing. How those words ring true. It is very hard to impossible to un see something. While I have seemed to stop looking at porn the damage is done. The porn is in my head. Last time I lost control over it was intense was all I seemed to do was look for more porn. It really just took over I had no say or so it seemed. Then one day I just stopped looking for it I have no explanation as to why.

Esterio

 

[Barkabus]

Thanks Tom E.

Esterio, I agree. I cannot describe the details of that porn exposure when I was 3 or 4. I know it was in my house. I think I know what room it was in, but I'm not sure. I can't recall anything else...Don't know who was with me, if anyone. don't know how I got access to the porn...one thing I do remember...the images, I can describe the images in stark detail. My young mind didn't comprehend what it was, I just know it made a deep impression.

Fortunately I'm porn free today...and each day I am thankful that I remain porn free.

Thanks,
Mike

 

[Esterio]

Hi Mike

I am glad you agree. I don't remember the first porn as to when I first saw it but I remember it. It was aminated was like a dirty cartoon. I did not understand it either but the images are still there today of that first look at porn. I am thinking it was before I was 5 but not really sure.

I would not say I am porn free yet as I still think about it. I don't go looking for it any more. It some times comes up on youtube when I am looking for movies but I seem to get past it.

peace be safe
Esterio

 

[LoneWolfX]

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[derrick]

Barkabus

A great poem

My first image of porn is imprinted on my soul. Fortunately the circumstance is not associated with the CSA that occurred with me.

Porn continues to be a burden nevertheless less