A Very Important Message-Hope

A Very Important Message-Hope
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one_day_at_a_time

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Dear Brothers,
There are two things that I want to say in this message. The first is this important phrase I realized this weekend because I gave in to the homosexual porn thoughts that have been reoccuring for the past few months, I had been fighting quite well but I gave in this past weekend. However, after I gave in and thought about it, I realized that I gave in because I didnt think I could fight for the next however many years (Im only 20). Then I realized, people who have been in NA or AA know this, that I am saved from my abuse effects just for today. I dont need to think about fighting for the next 50 years, just for today. Thats all that is important. I think sometimes we forget this and I think its a good lesson to remember.

The second thing that I want to do is finally say my first name on this thing. I never have before and I know that we are not supposed to reveal personal info, but I think a first name is ok. So here it is....Mark, my name is Mark and today I am going to take my abuse one day at a time and my abuser will silence me no longer.

Peace and Love my Brothers,
One Day
aka
Mark
 
mark, my name is Jeff. i have been pretty quiet recently. sometimes this site takes a lot out of me, as i read of all the pain. i am just checking in, so i'm not that familiar with your struggles. i was addicted to porn at one point, so i do know the power it can have. i wish you luck, and will pray for your recovery. hope you find some peace my friend.

jeff
 
Mark,

I said it somewhere else here, but I want to tell you something about hope.

Hope never dies. Hope is eternal. Hope is the dandelion of the cosmos. It has roots that go down forever and is IMPOSSIBLE to remove, no matter how hard anyone tries. Rip it out, dig it up, poison it, whatever, it will always return, always come back, always bloom again, no matter what, as long as you're patient and wait for it.

One day at a time, one hour, minute, second, however long you can wait, hope WILL ALWAYS come back.

I forget that from time to time. I need to remember that more.

Peace and love, Mark. I'm glad to meet you. :)

Scot
 
Hi Mark,

I'm Bill, if you hadn't already noticed.

The phrase (and your nick) "one day at a time" has a lot of wisdom in it. These fights, this healing are one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, if need be. If we took things on as a 50 year battle, not many things would be ever taken on ;) .

By the way, I'm 38 (39 in a few weeks) and I have 50+ years to go. :D So you should have more than that.

Take care,
Bill
 
Welcome Mark,

We are all glad that you found us! One day at a time seems like a mighty fine slogan for a lot of us! You will find much support and brotherhood here.

My name is TJ, and I am glad to meet you!

PEACE!!!!!!!!

TJ
 
One day at a time AKA Mark,

Mark,

I am sorry to hear that you were abused. It takes allot of courage to admit that to yourself and then seek out others to help you move on.

I think that it is important for you to believe that regardless of your natural sexual interest that you are entitled to be treated with respect.

DO NOT PUT UP WITH USERS AND DO NOT TOLERATE ANY MISTREATMENT

If you are straight, gay or bi-sexual, whatever you are... make sure that you are picky when selecting friends and potential mates. :)

I remember having a summer house with a bunch of so called friends in college. It turned out to be a one big drinking party were my housemates were only interested in getting laid. I had such poor self esteem I put up with all types of crap like being left in the bar with no ride home and only hearing from my "buddies" when they need me to pay my share of the rental fee. After 2 years of this I told them "See you around" and it has taken me almost 20 years to put myself back together. When I met these losers I had no memory of my father raping me at age 5...I totally was unable to protect my own interest. I would see a girl spend the night talking to her and think "she would never want me I am not worth it". I would think that I should be mistreated and abused and found myself attracted to anyone who would treated me like crap. This went on for years and it is only now that I can think about being emotionally and sexually close with a woman.

Sorry for the all the details! Good luck and much peace in your recovery. PROTECT YOURSELF!
;)
JAAY
 
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