A small victory

[EGL]

I know we have to take small victories where we can find them, so today I created one of my own.

I was the last of 3 children. When I was growing up, my parents didn't take any photos of me until I was about 7 or 8. I only have 1 photo of myself as a baby. It's a snapshot that my grandmother took of my mother holding me when I was a little over a year old. Grainy, taken at a distance, still can't really see much. Next photo of me was taken when I was about 6 and it is a family group photo.

So, I have a copy of that family group photo and today I scanned it into my computer and digitally cut and lifted my image from it. Put it onto a dark, mottled background and put it into a nice frame. Now I have a picture of (just) me from my childhood. I've got it on the table in the foyer so I can see it every time I come in or leave.

I know it seems like I'm creating something that never was from this, but it's important to me to kind of connect with that child that I was. I feel kind of like I have no identity from that time period since I don't even know what I looked like as before I was 6.

Anyway, made me feel good. It's a little victory.

 

Eddie,

I think that is great. Sounds like reminding you of the innocence of youth.

There are no pictures of me. But I would like to have done what you did.

Little victories are how wars are won. So you are that much closer to winning yours.

Peace,

Marc

 

[Ivanhoe]

Eddie,

We must be channeling or something. I was going through some of the old family photos and came across several of me with different people. The one that means the most to me is the one with Diantha...what a cutie she was. There we were sitting in a couple of youth chairs in her backyard...mine and hers were across the alley from one another...looking right into the camera, squinting out the North Dakota summer sun. That was before any abuse but after we had discovered each other playing doctor. Can I say that? Wished I could have whisked him away after that picture was taken...it started after that.
Hoping that your picture is a point of healing for you...thank you for the memory you stimulated in me today.

David2020...seeing more clearly, these days.

 

[Leonatomi]

EGL,

I am really pleased for you. I know how precious pictures of my childhood are, and it's nice that you a least have something to look at, even if the quality isn't what you hoped for. Definately a victory for you today, and I hope it gives you many hours of pleasure.

 

[Lloydy]

My computer wallpaper is a picture of me, aged about 3 and sitting in a battered tin pedal car with no tyres ! my first wheels

It's a terrific reminder of innocent days and I love to smile back at that kid every time my computer cranks up.

Dave

 

[reality2k4]

yeah

when they take the innocence away and replace it with abuse very little fun there.

I have a pic of me an innocent two year old, but the innocence is always there, just like the eternal kid.

Looking on the past with disgust, but digging myself out of the hole.

Everything I have to put in the past, so much hurt that we should never have been part of, but, we made it thru to where we are today.

The past I thought was impossible to get thru, but I am still here, just as we all are, we all have to discover our childhoods and think.

What might have been?

If only we knew

take care

ste

 

[Aden]

I must have been one of the most photographed kids around back then. There are so many old pictures of the inocent me. Sometimes it hurts to look at them. They remind me of what might have been. I love that little kid and wish that it were me.