A remarkable discovery

A remarkable discovery
J

jesse7

Registrant
Something strange happened today. I can't figure out exactly what but it felt like my body had suddenly experienced a vast emptiness where before there had been pressure and weight. It's almost like my body was hollow for a couple hours and there was nothing inside of me but a tender lightness--so light I felt like floating.

I can't explain how this came about or what brought it about, but I think it might have been a combination of meditating on the comments people left me and through studying Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now.

I first came to realize that all emotional problems come from living in the past and in the future. It's like I've been so caught up in my past that I'm blind to what I have right now. Conversely, I worry so much about the future that I can't seem to relax and I'm too busy comparing what is to what could be or to what could have been. The past and the future don't even exist yet they control us.

Another thing I understood from reading people's comments is that I shouldn't have to worry when people say negative things about me. Why should I? If what all of you here at MS say to me is true, that is, if I am to be loved for who I am regardless of anything else, then it makes no sense at all to be angry and to hold grudges against those who say bad things to me. Suppose someone tells me I'm stupid and that I can't do anything right. I know this is not true yet I feel the need to be defensive about it. The truth does not need to be defended. It's only when I believe what the other person says about me that I feel the need to be defensive. But if I know I'm not stupid or I'm not a total screw-up why should I even take their comments seriously? Imagine trying to argue with someone who tells you the world is flat. You know the world is round yet you feel like you should still take him seriously. Why should I quarrel and feel the need to defend myself? It's foolishness. The truth needs no defender.

Thank you guys for all your positive comments--they helped me to understand this powerful insight.

Jesse
 
The truth is the most important thing in my life, in the book I find it and that is where my journey begins. I started off in superman mode trying to defend the truth, while searching for it. I came to some great realizations about it and now my life is dedicated to it. I believe that the truth is objectivity, science revolves around it and I like that. My next book goes into great detail about the truth and how important it is, the problem I think most of us find with it seems to be that not many people like it. Like the movie, A Few Good Men, in court Jack Nicholson says "You can't handle the truth." I find that most people don't want to know the truth much less deal with it. Not saying Jack was right, some times the truth is in the eye of the beholder. However there is only one truth in my opinion.

You are on the right track Jesse, I enjoy your post, keep um coming. Trust in yourself, try not to be hard on yourself and try to relax if you can get a break. This is easier said than done, we all have trouble getting it to balance out, I know I do.
 
Jesse,

What I read in your post is the emergence of a willingness to believe in yourself again. That will be such an important source of strength for your recovery. Hold onto it!

Much love,
Larry
 
Originally posted by Morning Star:

As for your 'experience', it is part of your past, I'd rather talk about your NOW.
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How right you are. Only in the NOW can I truly experience life.

Jesse
 
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