A Moment of Faith
I am entering a new stage. What it means and the details are not clear. But the thing has happened.
I have lost 25 lbs. in the last 6 weeks. Started preliminary drawings for several new paintings. Been invited to join an artist group. Fired 2 subordinates at work. Saw the doctor and had several of my ills cured.
Life isnt perfect. There are more bills than I can ever pay. (Thanks to my ex-wife) And my body is getting old no matter how hard I try to make it better. But I am gaining power over my limitations.
The abuse deprived me in many ways. I suffered. Today I wish to be captain of this ship. My life is my own. I do not wish to be subject to the anger or hate or confusion.
This thing I know. Will follows desire. What I want is what I will have. Any confusion on that issue is self induced propaganda. There are no excuses. What I WANT is what I will have.
We can shape our desires. Want is a malleable attribut.
When you know this, when you expect it, you will have power over it.
Saying that it isnt that easy is not a way out of your problems. Hard work and serious effort are a standard part of life. You dont like to hear about just getting over it, but this is one step you will just have to get over. What you want is what you will get. You may not think you want it, but your desire does in fact control the events of your life. Not as an abused child, but as a rational adult.
You can choose.
Choosing is not easy. But it is a thing you are allowed to do. And if you follow your own true desires, the choices are rather interesting.
At the point of personal honesty you have to ask: What do I really want?
What is the point of your healing process? What are you looking for? I ask this because I believe that what you want is what you will get. I also believe that you can adjust what you want. You have more power over this process than you want to believe. The things that you can do inside you head are remarkable! You just have to want it enough, then believe it.
Aden
I have lost 25 lbs. in the last 6 weeks. Started preliminary drawings for several new paintings. Been invited to join an artist group. Fired 2 subordinates at work. Saw the doctor and had several of my ills cured.
Life isnt perfect. There are more bills than I can ever pay. (Thanks to my ex-wife) And my body is getting old no matter how hard I try to make it better. But I am gaining power over my limitations.
The abuse deprived me in many ways. I suffered. Today I wish to be captain of this ship. My life is my own. I do not wish to be subject to the anger or hate or confusion.
This thing I know. Will follows desire. What I want is what I will have. Any confusion on that issue is self induced propaganda. There are no excuses. What I WANT is what I will have.
We can shape our desires. Want is a malleable attribut.
When you know this, when you expect it, you will have power over it.
Saying that it isnt that easy is not a way out of your problems. Hard work and serious effort are a standard part of life. You dont like to hear about just getting over it, but this is one step you will just have to get over. What you want is what you will get. You may not think you want it, but your desire does in fact control the events of your life. Not as an abused child, but as a rational adult.
You can choose.
Choosing is not easy. But it is a thing you are allowed to do. And if you follow your own true desires, the choices are rather interesting.
At the point of personal honesty you have to ask: What do I really want?
What is the point of your healing process? What are you looking for? I ask this because I believe that what you want is what you will get. I also believe that you can adjust what you want. You have more power over this process than you want to believe. The things that you can do inside you head are remarkable! You just have to want it enough, then believe it.
Aden
Rik