A long over due thank you for two special people......
James_dup1
Registrant
At one time the child in side me was very close to one who was out side. I can remember the very moment in time that changed. I can remember the yellow and purple flower in the field. I can remember being able to see the roof of my house as I was being held down. I can remember 3 cars driving by. I can remember there were a few clouds in the sky. I can remember the pain I felt. I can remember the shame brought on by this day. I can almost pin point the time I stopped caring; about anyone else or myself. I can remember walking through life acting as if nothing was wrong. I can remember the joy I felt when my children were placed in my arms for the very first time, promising them I would protect them forever. The only joy in my life, till one night doing a search on the net and finding this web site. I remember the very first time I logged into the chat room. My hands shaking, feeling like I was going to puke. I remember one of the men there talking to me, sharing with me his feelings, his shame. From that first meeting a friendship grew. Over the years I have come to understand what it means to have a best friend, all because of his kind and caring heart. Over the years I came to call his family my family. No not just call, feel as if. I came to call his wife my baby sister. His children my nephews. Over the years I shared more of myself with my new family than I had even shared with myself. My best friend and my baby sister taught me to understand what love means. What it means to have family. What it means to love myself. For the very first time since I was 6 my inner child felt safe. Safe enough to come out at times and play. Safe enough to tell what happened to him. Safe enough to slowly understand that it wasnt his fault. The adult in me cried, laughed, and loved someone other than my children for the very first time ever. My new family taught me its worth the chance of pain to put yourself out there to make a friend. I want to thank my adopted family for showing me that true love is greater than any pain that may be felt from losing a love. I will never forget what you have done for me and my inner child. Your kindness and love for me showed me that its possible to love, not only possible but worth to love.
Thank you My Friend; Thank you Sis
JL
Thank you My Friend; Thank you Sis
JL