A interesting week!
lostcowboy
Registrant
As some of you may remember not to long ago I told my pastor, about my rape. Since then I have found two more SA survivors in my church, a married couple. Unfortunately it looks like they will be breaking up, but I am still hoping for the best for them. I'll talk more about them in another post, as things got very complicated with them. But I did get a great dog out of the experience, his name is Buddy.
Tuesday, I went to the Doctor to have my blood pressure checked, as I have high blood pressure. The doctor said it looked ok. Due to my involvement with the married couple, I decided that I should go ahead and get retested for aids, some of you may remember that I had a gay affair about 10 years ago, and while I did test negative then, it has been 10 years, I am just not sure where my involvement with this couple is going.
So I told my doc about the gay affair, and then before I knew it I had told him about me being raped as a kid. He was very understanding about the whole thing!
Wednesday, I got my dog Buddy in the car and went to the Park where I had been raped. I even put my head into the men's restroom where it happened, yes it was hard to do, but I did not panic, Buddy was right there with me, what a good dog! I looked all around the place, Met a lady who was taken care of three kids, the kids loved Buddy. While the kids were playing with Buddy, I let the lady know that I was visiting where my rape took place at, and that I thought it was still a dangerous place for kids.
I guess that decide it for me, I took the dog back home, and printed out my survivors story, got back in the car and went to the police station to report my old rape. I know they could do nothing for me, but I felt that by me coming forward about what happened and where it took place at. It may help convince them to have more patrols around the restrooms.
The police station was rough, I went up to the desk, and this pretty police woman asked if she could help me, I said yes I wanted to report a old rape that happened in 1968. She asked was I the victim or the, I quickly said victim. She put the info in the system and then asked me to have a seat. I kept thinking that I should just leave, but I didn't, also it kept feeling like what I was doing was not real, almost had a dream like quality to it, I daydream very easily. After about 30 minutes, two policemen, took me into a room and explained to me that the stature of limitations had run out, in Texas it is 10 years after the crime, or 10 years after your 18 birthday. I said that was ok as I could never identify the boy who had done it anyway. I explained to them about going to the park that day, and how I felt that area of the park was still very dangerous for little kids. They did ask me some of the details, it was hard answering the questions, it was like I was afraid that they would blame me ,that 11 year old kid, for the rape. But they were very understanding about it. I also said if they ever were to tear-down that restroom, me and a sledgehammer wanted first crack at it! They did explain that they had two patrolmen on bicycles in the park. I know it don't seem like much what I did, but at least they know for sure about the restroom.
Take care,
Clifford
Tuesday, I went to the Doctor to have my blood pressure checked, as I have high blood pressure. The doctor said it looked ok. Due to my involvement with the married couple, I decided that I should go ahead and get retested for aids, some of you may remember that I had a gay affair about 10 years ago, and while I did test negative then, it has been 10 years, I am just not sure where my involvement with this couple is going.
So I told my doc about the gay affair, and then before I knew it I had told him about me being raped as a kid. He was very understanding about the whole thing!
Wednesday, I got my dog Buddy in the car and went to the Park where I had been raped. I even put my head into the men's restroom where it happened, yes it was hard to do, but I did not panic, Buddy was right there with me, what a good dog! I looked all around the place, Met a lady who was taken care of three kids, the kids loved Buddy. While the kids were playing with Buddy, I let the lady know that I was visiting where my rape took place at, and that I thought it was still a dangerous place for kids.
I guess that decide it for me, I took the dog back home, and printed out my survivors story, got back in the car and went to the police station to report my old rape. I know they could do nothing for me, but I felt that by me coming forward about what happened and where it took place at. It may help convince them to have more patrols around the restrooms.
The police station was rough, I went up to the desk, and this pretty police woman asked if she could help me, I said yes I wanted to report a old rape that happened in 1968. She asked was I the victim or the, I quickly said victim. She put the info in the system and then asked me to have a seat. I kept thinking that I should just leave, but I didn't, also it kept feeling like what I was doing was not real, almost had a dream like quality to it, I daydream very easily. After about 30 minutes, two policemen, took me into a room and explained to me that the stature of limitations had run out, in Texas it is 10 years after the crime, or 10 years after your 18 birthday. I said that was ok as I could never identify the boy who had done it anyway. I explained to them about going to the park that day, and how I felt that area of the park was still very dangerous for little kids. They did ask me some of the details, it was hard answering the questions, it was like I was afraid that they would blame me ,that 11 year old kid, for the rape. But they were very understanding about it. I also said if they ever were to tear-down that restroom, me and a sledgehammer wanted first crack at it! They did explain that they had two patrolmen on bicycles in the park. I know it don't seem like much what I did, but at least they know for sure about the restroom.
Take care,
Clifford
