a BIG statement about PORN

[markgreyblue]

a few minutes ago -

i went to a gay porn site -

i am gay

but

ok - I have been growing increasingly grossed out

by the stuff i see -

sorry - this is my opinion post -too

but more so -

I have been learning about myself
and the power of my identity
yes versus impulses that the abuse
nourtured -

i have been learning to avoid
uhealthy situations and
and complicated ones that take me
away from my goals - etc..


it is not that I do not like sex -

I love intimacy -

But I will tell you my thoughts -

I feel porn perpetuates a kind of
unhealthy mind

it perpetuates it perhaps and mutltiplies it

in the way we view ourselves and each other -


like a bad example -

like look have sex like these people - no way!


the sex or sex in general is

seductive -

but if you think in terms of how
that is influencing you to think about

your intimate life -

sorry for this really huge opinion -

some people like it those videos

... ok tastes - whatever -

but I kind of think it

influences us to see each other and the sex ezperience in a really kind of -

unhealthful

way -


like i need a shower - now

and like i feel bad -

ok - whatever -

mark

any opionions? i feel gross -

 

[markgreyblue]

sorry if this is upsetting to anyone

i mean every body likes different stuff

and

wants different stuff -

i dunno -

i just see it differently for me

i know sex is healthy - it's been a while -

seeing that stuff - i know -

that kind of sex is not what makes

me healthy -

ok ... blablabla

 

[Galapogos]

I think I understand...Lately my thoughts on porn have changed too. I'm gay and experienced csa (I don't know if I'm a vicitm or a survivor, that's a different post).

Volumes have been written about porn, what it does to the people in it, and those who look at it.
For me, I didn't discover gay porn till I was in college, and it was very addictive. What I've realized lately is that it appeals to my physical lust, but never satisfies any needs, it's like scratching an insect bite, it just makes it itch more.

My interest in it seems to vary inversely with my self-esteem, or self-image. When I'm down on myself I'm more likely to seek it out. When I'm busy, when things are going better and I'm spending time interacting with real people, I'm not interested, or I don't spend time looking for it online.

Porn (for me) also reinforces reducing someone to a 2-dimensional image, instead of seeing them as a whole person. I've never been in a relationship, maybe porn seems easier than meeting someone, getting to know them etc.

-just my thoughts

~Galapogos