He said ‘no’ to this prayer because you are not a freak!"not a freak",
I feel the same way. I wish I knew the answer. I feel like I have to change to have a relationship with Him.God doesn't hate fags, freaks, or survivors but why can't I seem to believe that?
I truly believe He wants to have a relationship with you NOW - AS YOU ARE!! If He feels changes are needed (and, truly, we ALL need positive changes in our lives in many different ways), He will work those changes in your life as He guides you upon your Healing Journey. But for now, He just wants the relationship.I feel like I need to change WHO I am in order to have a relationship with God. Yet, I cannot change who I am.