ptsd

  1. NC-Survivor

    Back Trauma Memories

    TRIGER WARNINGS... I had some Muscle Memory release this morning in the shower... A bit of back story (no pun intended)... I was texting with the leader of my Porn Addiction/Sexual Brokenness on-line Support Group on Monday night as a check in. Afterwards, I felt horrible triggered, new PTSD...
  2. S

    PTSD/Shame/Guilt & How do I open up about this?

    My previous thread: 'Groomed and raped by a celebrity (Trigger Warning!)' https://forum.malesurvivor.org/threads/groomed-and-raped-as-an-adult-by-a-celebrity-trigger-warning.82544/ I’m having some trouble these last couple of days—more than normal. Self-blame, shame, and guilt are at the...
  3. CarbonTiger

    I've become more quiet

    The following contains trigger warnings. I sincerely apologize. I've become more quiet this year because it's so loud in my head. My thoughts often run wild because reality is to much at times. My body is in pain more often than I'd like too. I think this is why I can cry more easily now, only...
  4. C

    New here

    New here. I am hoping to find a community where I can discuss what it's like to be a survivor and learn from others' to better understand how this will impact the rest of my life. I am a survivor of sexual assault. Between the ages of 7 and 12, I was sexually molested by a family pediatrician...
  5. J

    PTSD Causing Intimacy Issues

    Masturbation is difficult for me because when I'm about to climax, I'll think about his beard and lips wet with liquor touching the back of my neck, or how he liked my feet. The kissing noise still gives me goose bumps and a stomach ache. I have no idea how I'll be able to have sex with these...
  6. CarbonTiger

    Realizing new triggers in public

    Ugh, I am just so frustrated and impatient these days. *I have* to vent this, otherwise i'll think about all day, write something stupid and delete it. I was out at Target getting 2 things in the middle of the weekend-day. I realize* that it was not a great choice. I now know I shouldnt shop...
  7. B

    Webinar: From Dissociation & Flight/Fight to Safe & Social : Polyvagal Theory for Sexual Abuse Survivors

    MaleSurvivor is excited to announce registration is now open for a compelling Webinar of Recovery, "From Dissociation & Flight/Fight to Safe & Social : Polyvagal Theory for Sexual Abuse Survivors", July 20, 2021 at 8:30pm Eastern Time USA. The keynote speaker, Justin Sunseri, a licensed...
  8. CarbonTiger

    NYTimes article on PTSD treatment w/psych drugs

    https://www.nytimes.com/2021/05/03/health/mdma-approval.amp.html ..."Over the next eight years, hundreds of therapists and others administered an estimated half a million doses of MDMA. Some reported that, in just a few sessions with the medication, patients achieved an amount of progress that...
  9. Overlevant

    Surviving childhood each day

    I'm new, and I'm old. I am finally sharing my first post. My abuse happened about 40 years ago. I want to openly express myself about my destroyed childhood and what I see as a compromised life, as a result of abuse and its repercussions. I've been unable to discuss, or rant, in the stream of...
  10. M

    Book by Yale Professor and Survivor

    I recently read Smoking Cigarettes, Eating Glass, by Yale Professor Dr. Annita Perez Sawyer. The book has moments of very explicit material that could be very triggering (it was for me). Even so, I found the book to impart a general feeling of hope. I came across the book because Dr. Perez...
  11. S

    My introduction

    Hello, I just recently joined the forum but I've been lurking for some time. I don't know what I want to say for an introduction. Let me just mention, like many of you, I too have experienced CSA. It was not a one time thing, but it occurred over and over for about a decade from the time I was...
  12. CharlieGoCrazy

    Excerpt From Abuse History

    Alright, I’ll try to summarize this in a detailed enough way that’s understandable to the majority of readers... At 20 approximately, I was displaced in the northwest after my mom abandoned me in Miami Florida 3,008 miles away from home by MYSELF and I navigated my way back through an agency...
  13. R

    Reaching Out

    I am a 45 year old male that has been dealing with the PTSD of childhood and teenage sexual, physical, and verbal abuse. From the ages of 3-12 I was abused routinely and if I fought back I would be placed in a dirty wooden box in the garage until I was ready to comply and not fight back. I...
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