abuse

  1. EternalCherryBlossom

    Is anyone else find all live-action porn absolutely repulsive?

    For me, the problem is that there are a lot of videos of actual rape filmed on camera, people being coerced into participating, photos and videos being released without consent. I've read survivors of such abuse speaking out, and I can't find such videos entertaining because it can be...
  2. J

    Grasping onto Straws

    Context: From ages 15-19 (20 rn), when my dad had been drinking, he would sexually abuse me in ways that made me feel violated, but too subdle and hit and run to prove abuse. It started after a mentally ill person falsely accused my dad of molesting my sister and I. I hold onto straws that my...
  3. CarbonTiger

    little one

    Stillness, Silence, Still, Violence. I've created something far worse in my mind The Devil does not reside here Nor do his demons This thing is an entity, enigmatic Supreme in it's way Above or below nothing Even God Source trembles The vibrations assemble The boy was not saved He did not...
  4. CarbonTiger

    Disclosing My Abuse My Picture, My Bday, My Will

    I'm staying, i'm not finished here yet. Today was hard. I decided on my way back I would drive by the house where it happened. It's an evil house. I'm almost positive I wasn't the only one abused there. I wasn't going to post 'my younger pic' here ever. I'm even more stubborn than my Mom. This...
  5. Darren White

    Lunatic

    This poem is very metaphor-heavy. I say this because it's about my abuse, but seems to be about something entirely different: Lunatic these wheels sink into sand or mud pull down every time I try to fly off the handle cut the brakes jump the cliff I fight with birds over keys to nest boxes...
  6. J

    Triggers Effecting my Sex Life

    One of my triggers is the kissing noise, which has effected my sex life. I had a "friends with benefits" and we planned on having sex with/making out with, but it never got past sexting. I bailed in part because I'm not ready to hear the kissing noise, I get nausous or goose bumps thinking about...
  7. M

    Abused becoming abuser??

    I see on TV and in movies the idea of the sexually abused growing up and becoming an abuser themselves. Does anyone know about this phenomenon? Is it as common as movies indicate? Why does it happen? ive not become an abuser but interested in knowing more about it. Also, I’ve been having...
  8. N

    Hello...

    Hello, I am Nathan and honestly, I have never really shared my full story before so this is all new for me. And maybe I should write this on the survivor's stories section but I just feel better writing it all in one go. I had very neglectful parents growing up my mother was a drug addict and...
  9. Gistin

    Un-Conditioning - How do I undo conditioning and make it mine?

    Hey all, I'm stuck and looking for some perspective or advice if you have it. This week has been incredibly tough on me, and since my last session Monday, I don't think there has been a day that I've been present. This means finding myself in an act but I'm really not present. I'm not a fan of...
  10. A

    Small physical abuse, big mental abuse

    Hi Guys. I hope you all are doing well. So let's get into this. Me and my girlfriend have been together for the past 5 years and like with any normal relationship we have our ups and downs. Like most relationships I suppose, the other party's parent or parents (mom in this case) does not like...
  11. E

    I slipped up, watched the news and my stomach has been turning all day [Tw: Retriggering, sexual abuse trauma]

    (All of this could be me fighting invisible ghosts that nobody but me can see. I'm aware I could be wrong about the news but my trauma doesn't understand that.) I'm still in this situation where I feel nauseous at any and every discussion surrounding sexual abuse and trauma in a legal context...
  12. CharlieGoCrazy

    Excerpt From Abuse History

    Alright, I’ll try to summarize this in a detailed enough way that’s understandable to the majority of readers... At 20 approximately, I was displaced in the northwest after my mom abandoned me in Miami Florida 3,008 miles away from home by MYSELF and I navigated my way back through an agency...
  13. S

    Thoughtful, caring article on CSA

    This is a free article that millions of Jehovah's Witnesses will be studying today. It outlines how Godly Love and Justice are imitated with regards to child sexual abuse, comforting the victims, and helping the community and the family to protect the innocent. This article includes many...
  14. iaccus

    Our Story Revisited TRIGGER WARNINGS

    TRIGGER WARNING We have chosen to revisit our original post from 2015 because we identified some changes in the language that violated OPSEC. We also wanted to explain some things in a more cogent and direct maner. The abuse started for me, as near as we can nail down when I was around six...
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