Do you ever wonder about what life would’ve been like without the abuse?
trevortins
Registrant
This is my first post so sorry if it’s in the wrong place or not on topic. My abuse has caused me a lot of pain, sleepless nights, anxiety, depression etc. But the one thing that really haunts me is the feeling that this is not who I really am and how I would be without the abuse.
Would I be able to have a normal relationship with women? Would I still have an eating disorder and porn addiction? Would I still be so uncomfortable around people? So many questions I have about who I could’ve been and how I should’ve been able to grow and develop on my own. But I’ll never know what parts are really me and what was just formed as a product of the abuse.
I really can’t even describe the feeling this gives me it’s like I’m trapped in a body that’s not really mine and I’m constantly being forced to do things I don’t really want.
Would I be able to have a normal relationship with women? Would I still have an eating disorder and porn addiction? Would I still be so uncomfortable around people? So many questions I have about who I could’ve been and how I should’ve been able to grow and develop on my own. But I’ll never know what parts are really me and what was just formed as a product of the abuse.
I really can’t even describe the feeling this gives me it’s like I’m trapped in a body that’s not really mine and I’m constantly being forced to do things I don’t really want.