Is it grace?
There's two reasons why I chose to place these thoughts here.
1. They're profoundly uniquely religious-based
2. There's less of a chance of a war breaking out due to Fallout 2.0
Earlier today I realized, and was totally blindsided by the realization, that the latest fiasco creating Fallout 2.0 there, I was completely targeted. It was a targeted "attack" even though I wasn't attacked. Thankfully I wasn't, but I know others were literally attacked. My heart goes out to you.
But targeted. Yes. Specifically sought out, because this guy was the same one as before. And it's the detail that came to me which caused the realization.
And my first reaction (though I'm kinda ashamed of it) was: what an S.O.B.!!!
However, pondering this phenomenon a little while later as it was turning through my head as things often do, it changed a little. My viewpoint on it changed. Was I targeted? Sure as anything. But, what changed was I could now see this guy as seriously hurting.
Let me explain.
To actually do a thing like that. Especially after my final e-mail to him kindly and softly saying: please don't contact me, and him agreeing.... for him to still do this. For it to happen in such a deceitful way... I have to believe that there really is a lot of suffering going on there. And that made me think of all this CSA junk that we're brought up against constantly throughout our everyday lives.
We know the effects that the CSA does to us. We know the burdens. So this guy, the infiltrator, just how bad must he really be hurting himself?
There is definitely room for mercy. For caring. For praying.
That doesn't mean that I want to see him back in here.
But he does need help. He can certainly use and needs our prayers.
And I promise, such a realization could only have come from grace. I've been too hurt to get to that on my own.
I know many others have been hurt. Trust has been shattered. Worlds have been shaken. Panic still walks among us. We must protect ourselves. We must stay together and support each other. But while being strong together, maybe we could also give a thought to this guy in pain, whether he realizes he's actually in pain or not.
1. They're profoundly uniquely religious-based
2. There's less of a chance of a war breaking out due to Fallout 2.0
Earlier today I realized, and was totally blindsided by the realization, that the latest fiasco creating Fallout 2.0 there, I was completely targeted. It was a targeted "attack" even though I wasn't attacked. Thankfully I wasn't, but I know others were literally attacked. My heart goes out to you.
But targeted. Yes. Specifically sought out, because this guy was the same one as before. And it's the detail that came to me which caused the realization.
And my first reaction (though I'm kinda ashamed of it) was: what an S.O.B.!!!
However, pondering this phenomenon a little while later as it was turning through my head as things often do, it changed a little. My viewpoint on it changed. Was I targeted? Sure as anything. But, what changed was I could now see this guy as seriously hurting.
Let me explain.
To actually do a thing like that. Especially after my final e-mail to him kindly and softly saying: please don't contact me, and him agreeing.... for him to still do this. For it to happen in such a deceitful way... I have to believe that there really is a lot of suffering going on there. And that made me think of all this CSA junk that we're brought up against constantly throughout our everyday lives.
We know the effects that the CSA does to us. We know the burdens. So this guy, the infiltrator, just how bad must he really be hurting himself?
There is definitely room for mercy. For caring. For praying.
That doesn't mean that I want to see him back in here.
But he does need help. He can certainly use and needs our prayers.
And I promise, such a realization could only have come from grace. I've been too hurt to get to that on my own.
I know many others have been hurt. Trust has been shattered. Worlds have been shaken. Panic still walks among us. We must protect ourselves. We must stay together and support each other. But while being strong together, maybe we could also give a thought to this guy in pain, whether he realizes he's actually in pain or not.