Who has healed?
MACH123
Registrant
I'm not suicidally depressed. So I start from there. Going through it (I'm at 5 years or so) I felt like you do a lot. I got good help and therapists.
But I feel mostly like this is what I have to settle for. I don't find that bad considering. I'm a little depressed sometimes and it's anxiety mostly.
So yes I'm better, much. In the big picture what's it mean? IDK. I tried to put myself out of my misery so I wouldn't remember. Now it's all on the surface, here and now. It's a lot to deal with or it seems like it.
So I try not to worry and I rely on my therapist and I try to be easy with myself. I think i experienced CSA and repressed memories and I'm still here.
Some days are better than others. Most of the real bad stuff is in the past, what it was like then. If I never slid back, if I'm never really depressed again, I think I can live with that.
But I feel mostly like this is what I have to settle for. I don't find that bad considering. I'm a little depressed sometimes and it's anxiety mostly.
So yes I'm better, much. In the big picture what's it mean? IDK. I tried to put myself out of my misery so I wouldn't remember. Now it's all on the surface, here and now. It's a lot to deal with or it seems like it.
So I try not to worry and I rely on my therapist and I try to be easy with myself. I think i experienced CSA and repressed memories and I'm still here.
Some days are better than others. Most of the real bad stuff is in the past, what it was like then. If I never slid back, if I'm never really depressed again, I think I can live with that.