Shame and wanting to act out
Hi guys, I've taken a couple weeks off from this site. Sometimes I get overwhelmed reading all of the posts. I'm currently having really strong desires to act out in chatrooms. I'm having shame, and it makes me want to escape reality.
Made love with my wife last week, tried to be emotionally present and connected. I felt like crying afterwards. I have a hard time letting myself be happy and feel good. Part of me just wants to focus on the lust and chat with strangers and masturbate. Why is it so hard to be vulnerable and present with the person I love? It's frustrating.
I'm not acting out, but I want to. I'm scared to make love with my wife because I think I'll feel ashamed or disconnected. But I want to be with her in that way. I will try and communicate with her, and focus on the emotional part of connecting.
Thanks for reading.
Flying
Made love with my wife last week, tried to be emotionally present and connected. I felt like crying afterwards. I have a hard time letting myself be happy and feel good. Part of me just wants to focus on the lust and chat with strangers and masturbate. Why is it so hard to be vulnerable and present with the person I love? It's frustrating.
I'm not acting out, but I want to. I'm scared to make love with my wife because I think I'll feel ashamed or disconnected. But I want to be with her in that way. I will try and communicate with her, and focus on the emotional part of connecting.
Thanks for reading.
Flying