Not your fault
Toad
Registrant
Somewhere out there in the dark sections of the internet are pictures and videos of us.
I was really little and even at the time I couldn’t remember what exactly had happened, but I remember the bright warm lights. It is disturbing that whatever happened to us is probably still out there. I was and am still very good at disassociation and I go back and forth wishing I could remember more, while also wishing to forget the little I do remember. But so far the little I do remember has proved true.
So I wanted to say this to you. I was very little, and you were a much older boy a teenager. But you were used at the same time. But I feel strongly that you were a victim too.
The people making the videos or pictures were in complete control, not you the older child. So if you were made to do things to me the younger kid, it is not your fault. I did not and do not hold you responsible.
Let me say it again. They were using our bodies. They chose who did what, with what parts. There is nothing you or I could have done. So if you are feeling guilty, or feeling like an abuser. That is not your shame. I absolve you.
Do not worry about me. I am strong. I am a survivor.
I was really little and even at the time I couldn’t remember what exactly had happened, but I remember the bright warm lights. It is disturbing that whatever happened to us is probably still out there. I was and am still very good at disassociation and I go back and forth wishing I could remember more, while also wishing to forget the little I do remember. But so far the little I do remember has proved true.
So I wanted to say this to you. I was very little, and you were a much older boy a teenager. But you were used at the same time. But I feel strongly that you were a victim too.
The people making the videos or pictures were in complete control, not you the older child. So if you were made to do things to me the younger kid, it is not your fault. I did not and do not hold you responsible.
Let me say it again. They were using our bodies. They chose who did what, with what parts. There is nothing you or I could have done. So if you are feeling guilty, or feeling like an abuser. That is not your shame. I absolve you.
Do not worry about me. I am strong. I am a survivor.
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