Oh, WOW!
That takes a lot of courage and I'm humbled that in some way I was part of your inspiration, but you need to give yourself the credit for being courageous enough to walk through your fears and actually take that step. I hope it works out well. I must tell you that it may not, at first, as it might be hard to find a great match on the first try. If that happens, don't get discouraged. Even if it doesn't work out, the fact is that you can get through it and survive it. Chances are, it WILL be OK. Most people I've met in this journey have been kind and supportive, so the odds are in your favor.
I've been to multiple T's, sometimes it worked great, sometimes it didn't, but I learned valuable lessons from each one, even the ones that weren't so helpful.
You've probably heard that a 1000 mile journey starts with the first step. Who knows what kind of journey it might be? I know in mine, I've found peaks, valleys, beautiful places, ugly places, rocky places, scary places, peaceful places, inspiring places, and they are all part of the same journey. I myself have been through a very rough, scary place recently but I'm starting to emerge from it, as I knew I will. Being that I've been in therapy off and on for so long, I know what to expect and sometimes, when turbulence hits, I just need to hang in there, eventually it passes, and I can relax and look out of the window at the beautiful scenery. I remember one particularly scary flight 30 years ago, we had some major storms and the pilot warned us in advance that it was going to be really rough, and it was. During the turbulence, the pilot kept talking to us, letting us know that we've already gone 10 miles, and there were several more miles ahead. This went on until we finally cleared the turbulence. It was very scary but I'm thankful that the pilot was caring enough to let us know what to expect during that rough time. It seems the same applies here. Your T, and hopefully us here in MS can let you know what to expect and provide a comforting voice during this process. I can attest to that, as during the past couple of weeks, the fellow members here in MS as well as my T have been comforting voices walking me through my latest turbulent patch. I feel I'm clearing the storm, so I'll allow myself to relax and enjoy the scenery.
Congratulations on your bravery. I'm proud of you.