***trigger warning *"" why did he do that
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I have a re-occuring nightmare about one particular night so I wondered if writing it out would help
I'd be around 21 it wasn't the first time he ( F) had sexually assaulted me or raped me as an adult
I knew by his deminar that night I was in a bit of bother, he hadn't been invited to the family gathering ( a wedding) but he had turned up anyway near the end of the night
Was he looking for me I don't know but it was me he were paying attention too
So I tried to ignore him sticking with a group. I had a hotel booked back in town and a cab so I thought I had given myself a safe exit. I had , had a few to many well more than a few
In the cab I felt sick so the driver stopped and let me out but he was annoyed about losing money waiting so drove off. So I started walking towards town
He F the pulls up in a van telling me to get in he will take me where I'm going , I said no but he never listened to anyone that said that
He forced me in the van no one to hear the scuffle noone to see it on a dark country road
At his he said he didn't know why I was fighting with him it was stupid since all he wanted was a bit of fun to end the night he managed to pin me head on the sofa knelling in front of it holding my hands behind my back he said since I was being awkward he would have to tie my hands there after he had he asked if that's what I liked being tied up and f***** because I sure behaved like I did. I felt sick I had tried my hardest to fight him off I had tried my hardest to keep myself safe and there I was he was going to rape me again no mercy
Told me I looked fit start undoing his trousers sat down and put my head in his groin and made his demands he was already hard had the fight turned him on? He told me to do it good just how he liked or I'd be sorry I did as I was told feeling defeated
Bit like now thought I could write this and I can't I'm done
Thanks for the safe place MS
Peace
HL
I'd be around 21 it wasn't the first time he ( F) had sexually assaulted me or raped me as an adult
I knew by his deminar that night I was in a bit of bother, he hadn't been invited to the family gathering ( a wedding) but he had turned up anyway near the end of the night
Was he looking for me I don't know but it was me he were paying attention too
So I tried to ignore him sticking with a group. I had a hotel booked back in town and a cab so I thought I had given myself a safe exit. I had , had a few to many well more than a few
In the cab I felt sick so the driver stopped and let me out but he was annoyed about losing money waiting so drove off. So I started walking towards town
He F the pulls up in a van telling me to get in he will take me where I'm going , I said no but he never listened to anyone that said that
He forced me in the van no one to hear the scuffle noone to see it on a dark country road
At his he said he didn't know why I was fighting with him it was stupid since all he wanted was a bit of fun to end the night he managed to pin me head on the sofa knelling in front of it holding my hands behind my back he said since I was being awkward he would have to tie my hands there after he had he asked if that's what I liked being tied up and f***** because I sure behaved like I did. I felt sick I had tried my hardest to fight him off I had tried my hardest to keep myself safe and there I was he was going to rape me again no mercy
Told me I looked fit start undoing his trousers sat down and put my head in his groin and made his demands he was already hard had the fight turned him on? He told me to do it good just how he liked or I'd be sorry I did as I was told feeling defeated
Bit like now thought I could write this and I can't I'm done
Thanks for the safe place MS
Peace
HL