Someone I knew was arrested for child porn
JayBro
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TRIGGER WARNING
My anxiety and PTSD symptoms have been a little higher than usual this past 8 or 9 months, with much of it directly related to my abuse experiences but some of it also just having to do with uni and work stress (and I guess then how I tie up my self-confidence with such inaccurate measures of "worth"). However, in the last 1.5 weeks I have been particularly disturbed because I found out that someone who lived in my 40 person residence during 1st year of uni, someone who I knew and whose family I knew, was arrested for accessing, possessing, and distributing child pornography- the exact crime which has victimized and tormented me so much! Apparently, he was being investigated by the police in my former uni town and they raided his apartment. In a few months time there will be a court appearance.
This is has been circulated a lot in the local news. The media generally in Canada reports quite a lot on child pornography investigations, with stories almost every other day. Needless to say, they trigger me tremendously, but this latest story has really hit home. I have never known someone before who consumed child abuse imagery, yet alone lived in the same small residence. Most first year uni residence accommodations in Canada have several 100 students, but our residence was a special arts-focused community where we needed to write special applications in order to get in. We had weekly residence events and everyone knew each other real well during that year and in the subsequent years. In addition, I knew this guy's sister previously because she used to sit next to me in Grade 7 of elementary school.
So yeah, this has hit me way too close to home and has made me feel extremely uncomfortable, sad, mad, powerless, but also made me feel pity for him, his family and friends, and, of course, his victims. It makes me wonder, did he collect and look at child abuse imagery while we lived under the same roof?
When I first found out (which was via Facebook), I was in shock and disbelief. I went to his Facebook page thinking, well there's got to be other people in town with the same name?... I verified his age as reported in the news articles, and someone else verified his Facebook page name which was slightly different than his legal name. The next day I went again and his page was taken down.
I feel real tormented and incredibly shaken, however it is difficult to physically manifest my feelings. I am burying myself in work and trying to visit friends, but I am going through continuous anxiety attacks almost everyday thinking about him or other stuff. There has also been an increase in triggering material I am seeing in shows like Family Guy or in movies which used to be my go-to to unwind and have a laugh when feeling triggered; now they are becoming a new source of triggers. :-/
In 1.5 months he has his court date and so I think the news media will have updates on the story.
My anxiety and PTSD symptoms have been a little higher than usual this past 8 or 9 months, with much of it directly related to my abuse experiences but some of it also just having to do with uni and work stress (and I guess then how I tie up my self-confidence with such inaccurate measures of "worth"). However, in the last 1.5 weeks I have been particularly disturbed because I found out that someone who lived in my 40 person residence during 1st year of uni, someone who I knew and whose family I knew, was arrested for accessing, possessing, and distributing child pornography- the exact crime which has victimized and tormented me so much! Apparently, he was being investigated by the police in my former uni town and they raided his apartment. In a few months time there will be a court appearance.
This is has been circulated a lot in the local news. The media generally in Canada reports quite a lot on child pornography investigations, with stories almost every other day. Needless to say, they trigger me tremendously, but this latest story has really hit home. I have never known someone before who consumed child abuse imagery, yet alone lived in the same small residence. Most first year uni residence accommodations in Canada have several 100 students, but our residence was a special arts-focused community where we needed to write special applications in order to get in. We had weekly residence events and everyone knew each other real well during that year and in the subsequent years. In addition, I knew this guy's sister previously because she used to sit next to me in Grade 7 of elementary school.
So yeah, this has hit me way too close to home and has made me feel extremely uncomfortable, sad, mad, powerless, but also made me feel pity for him, his family and friends, and, of course, his victims. It makes me wonder, did he collect and look at child abuse imagery while we lived under the same roof?
When I first found out (which was via Facebook), I was in shock and disbelief. I went to his Facebook page thinking, well there's got to be other people in town with the same name?... I verified his age as reported in the news articles, and someone else verified his Facebook page name which was slightly different than his legal name. The next day I went again and his page was taken down.
I feel real tormented and incredibly shaken, however it is difficult to physically manifest my feelings. I am burying myself in work and trying to visit friends, but I am going through continuous anxiety attacks almost everyday thinking about him or other stuff. There has also been an increase in triggering material I am seeing in shows like Family Guy or in movies which used to be my go-to to unwind and have a laugh when feeling triggered; now they are becoming a new source of triggers. :-/
In 1.5 months he has his court date and so I think the news media will have updates on the story.