Shame and old feelings
I've been getting overwhelmed by shame lately when I have anxiety. Also, when my wife initiates sex I get scared, part of me freezes up, and I feel shame. I'm realizing that I froze my feelings during abuse situations as a kid, and I feel that now I am starting to go back and let the kid in me feel all of the things I shut out: fear, shame, disgust, excitement, confusion, sadness, anger. At times I feel like crying for no reason. I have one or two friends I can talk to, and I have my therapist. I can tell my wife a little, but I don't want to burden her.
That is where I am right now.
Ben
That is where I am right now.
Ben