Confused
Healing light
Registrant
Hey all.
I'm new on here I'm really not sure where to start so I'm going with the here and now I'm in a straight relationship 4 yr now and she's honestly beyond my wildest dreams together we have been trying to get threw all this my baggage
Recently I joined a therapy group there someone disclosed they had same sex relations. I thought I was the only one
The guilt is horrific, somehow I need to change my behaviour. I don't know how
I have not been near a man for a few months now I'm alright kissing and cuddling I find it weirdly soothing with a man or woman except I fancy ladies I will actively flirt to initiate that and then I get myself in a predicament when a man want to go further and I don't but can't say no I disassociate and go threw the motions sometimes I'm sick and that tends to end the moment so as to speak I have got myself in all sorts of predicaments over the years.
I trigger myself so badly doing this it makes me ill and obviously impacts on my relationship she knows me so well and I feel so guilty I disclose what I have done
You would think she would want to leave me but she says she don't I don't know why though I want to leave me
I have no idea where in my abuse this all comes from I want to control myself I can't seem to
Any suggestions guys on how I work threw this and don't destroy my family I'm so blessed with be appreciated
I'm new on here I'm really not sure where to start so I'm going with the here and now I'm in a straight relationship 4 yr now and she's honestly beyond my wildest dreams together we have been trying to get threw all this my baggage
Recently I joined a therapy group there someone disclosed they had same sex relations. I thought I was the only one
The guilt is horrific, somehow I need to change my behaviour. I don't know how
I have not been near a man for a few months now I'm alright kissing and cuddling I find it weirdly soothing with a man or woman except I fancy ladies I will actively flirt to initiate that and then I get myself in a predicament when a man want to go further and I don't but can't say no I disassociate and go threw the motions sometimes I'm sick and that tends to end the moment so as to speak I have got myself in all sorts of predicaments over the years.
I trigger myself so badly doing this it makes me ill and obviously impacts on my relationship she knows me so well and I feel so guilty I disclose what I have done
You would think she would want to leave me but she says she don't I don't know why though I want to leave me
I have no idea where in my abuse this all comes from I want to control myself I can't seem to
Any suggestions guys on how I work threw this and don't destroy my family I'm so blessed with be appreciated